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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 88)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 88)

Part 88 operates under a dominant frequency that distinguishes it from the broader cultural scanning of its companion installments. Where the mosaic form typically distributes attention across the full horizontal range of contemporary experience — politics, technology, race, economics, theology — this installment turns more persistently inward and downward, toward dying, toward the child-self, toward the specific textures of grief, bodily humiliation, estrangement, and the narrow windows in which human beings actually reach each other. Death here is not a subject among subjects but a medium: the element through which nearly every other observation is refracted. The sequence's implicit argument is that a culture without dying-literacy — a term the poem will coin and immediately ironize — mismanages nearly everything downstream from it.

"Sensing the dinosaur in the parrot eye" opens with one of the sequence's most compressed and beautiful observations. It is paleontologically grounded — birds carry the evolutionary inheritance of theropod dinosaurs, the parrot's eye retains that lineage — but the poem deploys this as phenomenological event rather than scientific fact. "Sensing" is the crucial verb: not knowing, not seeing, but the more uncertain and intuitive apprehension of something that cannot be proven and cannot be unfelt. Deep time becomes suddenly visible in the quotidian. The image establishes the sequence's governing temporal mode: the past is not past, evolutionary and geological depth is present in ordinary surfaces, and attention — genuine attention — can crack open into duration far exceeding the human. This is also the poem's implicit claim about its own aphoristic method: the fragment, attending to the apparently trivial, can access something ancient.

"Apologizing to people for crying in front of them" follows with a shift from the cosmological to the acutely social. The apology performs the culture's management of emotional display: tears require explanation, and the explanation takes the form of an apology because the crier has, by cultural convention, imposed something on the witness. The stanza names this without satirizing it — the apology is genuine, the discomfort is real, the convention is internalized. It belongs to a loose cluster across the sequence of observations about the management of feeling under social pressure: the half-hour window before paternal stupor, the children's clothing inked for body identification, the cell check and the torn sanitary pads. Each names a specific site where the private and the institutional collide, usually at the private's expense.

"Sick of seeing family since they mourn you as if already dead" names a specific cruelty internal to anticipatory grief. The family's love expresses itself as premature mourning, which forecloses the present tense of the still-living person. To be mourned before dying is to be erased by the very attention meant to honor you. The poem holds this without adjudication: the family's grief is genuine, and its effect on its object is devastating, and these two facts are not reconcilable. The stanza's particular compression — the word "sick" carrying both emotional exhaustion and the condition that makes the mourning necessary — refuses to let any participant escape cleanly.

"Mothers inking names in their children's clothing for body identification" arrives without editorial framing, and that restraint is the move. The act belongs to contexts of mass casualty — war, siege, displacement, disaster — but the poem renders it in the domestic register of ordinary maternal labor. The intimacy of inking a child's name into a collar, performed in the same gesture as sewing a button, holds the catastrophic and the routine in a single image. The stanza connects to "distracting the kids from daily bomb sirens added to the besieged mother's duties" later in the sequence: a diptych of maternal management under conditions that the poem's probable readership encounters only at a distance, as news. For the mothers in these stanzas, the extraordinary is the ordinary.

"Trying to talk to your father in that half-hour window before after-work stupor" maps a precise domestic topology. The window is not metaphorical but structural: everything a child needs to say or ask or secure fits into this interval or goes unsaid. "After-work stupor" is deliberately unspecified in its cause — alcohol is available as a reading, but so is exhaustion, depression, the simple attrition of daily labor. Children rarely possess clinical explanations for parental unavailability. They possess only the window and its closing.

"Extending forgiveness less because he deserves it than because you deserve peace" reframes forgiveness entirely. Not moral generosity toward the offender but self-interested liberation from the weight of sustained grievance. The "he" remains unspecified — father, lover, assailant, colleague — and the ambiguity is generative rather than evasive. The stanza refuses the vocabulary of virtue in which forgiveness is performed as a gift to its recipient. It insists on the transaction's self-directed logic, which is simultaneously more honest and more morally complicated: forgiveness as hygiene, not grace. The formulation is one the poem does not sentimentalize. It notes the motive without condemning it.

"Simply raising a few fingers from the steering wheel to the man on the corner" is the sequence's most minimal act of human recognition, and its placement gives it weight. The raised fingers are acknowledgment in its cheapest and most widely distributable form: a signal that the man on the corner exists in the driver's field of attention. The poem frames this not as charity but as recognition — the gift of being seen, delivered at negligible cost. That such minimal acknowledgment registers as notable is itself an observation about the scarcity of ordinary recognition.

The Chinese food deliveryman stanza is the sequence's most sustained comedic set piece, and its comedy is analytical. The deliveryman is "disgusted by the thought / that the pizza deliveryman now at his door, dreck / of the American Dream, is making eyes at his daughter." The hierarchy being enforced — the Chinese deliveryman locating the pizza deliveryman below himself on the aspirational ladder, protecting his daughter from a rival claimant — is simultaneously recognizable as human and precise as social observation. "Dreck / of the American Dream" performs the Dream's internal class system: among those the Dream has not yet lifted, fine distinctions of relative elevation are maintained with great seriousness. The stanza does not mock this. It records it with a clarity that is its own form of respect.

"In love it is not obscene for an imperfect being to expect being taken as perfect" is the sequence's most generous formulation. It does not argue that love is delusional but that its central demand — to be received as whole, without remainder, without the deduction of one's faults — is legitimate even for the irreducibly flawed. "Obscene" is carefully chosen: it forestalls the objection that such expectation is narcissistic or unreasonable. The poem insists that making this demand belongs to love's proper grammar. The stanza does not promise the expectation will be met.

The hobo stanza achieves its effects through a single image of sustained precision. "A hobo squatting out shit in an alley, / his great-white-shark eyes unfazed / by high beams glowing them like road signs." The great-white-shark eyes carry a specific biological claim: the shark registers no fear because its nervous system does not model danger the way mammals do. The hobo's unfazed eyes suggest a comparable condition — not courage but the radical attrition of the threat-response through sufficient exposure to exposure itself. The high beams illuminate the eyes "like road signs": directional markers for other travelers, utilitarian, impersonal. The man has been converted by circumstance into infrastructure. The image does not grieve this. It records it exactly.

"Even more concealed it seems, now that we abandon / the distinction between man and deed, is that abyssal / stratum in which we are one even with our antipodes" is the sequence's most philosophically ambitious stanza. The argument is counterintuitive: the progressive move of separating persons from their acts — judging the deed without condemning the doer — paradoxically conceals a deeper stratum in which even our most extreme opposites share our nature. To collapse the man/deed distinction in the name of compassion is to lose sight of what genuine compassion requires: the recognition that the capacity for the deed inheres in the same human nature one shares with its perpetrator. "Antipodes" — those at the opposite pole, the furthest imaginable from us — is the exact term for what the poem insists we cannot finally separate ourselves from.

"What do we hope to avoid by labeling all suicides 'cases of mental illness'?" opens a question the poem declines to close. The label performs specific social work — it pathologizes the act, removes it from the domain of rational choice or social indictment, protects the community from examining what conditions it may have produced. The question does not argue that suicide is rational or that mental illness is not real. It asks what function the label serves beyond clinical description, and what that function costs in terms of honest reckoning. The poem is not the first to ask this question, but its placement — between the prison guard tearing sanitary pads and the stanza about being stuck up for a cross piece — gives it particular force. The question sits among images of institutional violence and desperate vernacular prayer.

"Being stuck up for your cross piece, / unsure if it will even help to yell out, / 'Yo dad — dad it's me, bro: Mikey!'" is the sequence's most startling tonal shift, and its comedy does not cancel its horror. The scenario is robbery at gunpoint; the hostage's appeal to paternal recognition — "it's me, bro: Mikey!" — deploys the casual register of street address in a moment of absolute extremity. The "bro" is simultaneously the idiom of the neighborhood and a genuine appeal to brotherhood, to the recognition that the robber and the robbed share a world in which fathers exist and names matter. Whether this appeal could work is left entirely open. The poem trusts the image to carry its own ambivalence.

The dying cluster is the sequence's thematic center of gravity, distributed across multiple stanzas that accumulate into a sustained argument. "Let your dying be an occasion to bring out the best in onlookers" proposes dying as moral practice — not merely endured but performed, in the older sense of performed: brought to completion, given form. "Do not go to your death as an amateur: attend to dying for the research" extends this into epistemological territory. Dying is available only once and is therefore among the experiences most demanding of full attention — to go as an amateur is to waste the data. "So much dying, but still no dying-literacy — dying-literary, in fact, dying" is the sequence's great pun and its most devastating compressed argument. The wordplay enacts through sound what it argues through sense: the culture's literacy about dying is itself dying, the capacity to read death as a meaningful human event atrophying even as death-as-spectacle proliferates. "How much others could grow, shake / at least that intergenerational grudge / against life, seeing a dying done well!" completes the cluster: a well-attended death is among the most significant transmissions one generation can offer another.

"Only whenever the parents left / his bedside was the child allowed / the knowledge that he was dying" is the sequence's most quietly devastating entry. The parents' protection — their refusal to let the child know — deprives him of the one thing that would allow integration of his own dying. Knowledge of one's death becomes something received alone, in the gap between parental visits. The poem does not condemn the parents. The cost of their protection is named with precision; the motive for it is not disputed.

"In the grand theater of fake fury over the president's hot-mic boast that he 'grabs 'em / by the pussy,' she recast her soirée flex — worn like Cruella fur over years of milking / envy from starstruck primates — as mascara-tear MeToo (ripe with anal embellishment)" is the sequence's most politically volatile stanza, and it requires careful handling that neither flattens it into simple anti-feminist provocation nor insulates it from legitimate challenge. The target is not the MeToo movement but a specific figure of opportunistic appropriation: the socially elevated woman who converts a genuine political moment into personal brand extension, wearing feminist outrage as she has worn other markers of status — instrumentally, performatively, for the room. "Soirée flex," "starstruck primates," "Cruella fur," "anal embellishment" — the diction is deliberately excessive, calibrated to match the excess it diagnoses. The poem risks complicity with exactly the dismissal of women's political speech that it claims to be targeting within a subset. That risk is real and the poem does not resolve it. What it does is insist that the category of opportunistic appropriation exists, that it is not identical to the genuine movement, and that failing to name it out of protective solidarity is its own form of bad faith.

"Living in the time where humans / are becoming outdated need not mean / living in a time where they have no purpose" offers the sequence's most measured response to technological displacement anxiety. The distinction between obsolescence and purposelessness is genuine: a hammer does not cease to have a use when power tools arrive. The stanza refuses both the catastrophism that treats human redundancy as total and the optimism that denies the redundancy is occurring. It holds the middle position without sentimentality.

"Father's hands sudsing your own at the sink" arrives near the sequence's close as one of its most purely imagistic entries. No narrative, no argument — only the sensory memory of a specific domestic intimacy: the father's hands working soap into the child's at the sink, the intergenerational transmission of the simplest hygiene. The image accumulates against the sequence's other father observations — the half-hour window, the Mikey stanza — to suggest a complex paternal presence: unavailable, dangerous, and capable of this.

"That age when a child in the antebellum South / had to face that some of his best playmates / are just commodities — indeed, his very own" closes the sequence on one of its most morally exacting images. The child's developmental task — integrating the knowledge that those he plays with are property, and that some of that property is his — is rendered without historical distance. "His very own" arrives at the line's end with the full weight of possession's obscenity. The stanza does not editorialize. The horror is in the situation exactly described.

The final image — "king-of-the-mountain on dirt mounds / excavated from a mine, draglines / paused in the air for the holidays" — closes on a tableau of industrial and childhood scale superimposed. Children play king-of-the-mountain on the byproduct of extraction; the draglines are paused, enormous and idle, for a human holiday that the machines observe only by stopping. The image is not symbolic so much as exact: two scales of human activity — the child's game, the industrial operation — sharing the same ground, temporarily stilled by the same calendar. The sequence ends not on resolution but on this suspended image of scale, industry, play, and pause — the draglines in the air, going nowhere, waiting for the holiday to end.

Formally, Part 88 achieves its effects through contrast of scale and register more consistently than its companion installments. The cosmological ("sensing the dinosaur in the parrot eye," "microbial stowaways in space rock") sits against the micro-domestic ("father's hands sudsing your own at the sink," "looking for an undo button — / on the counter, on the floor — / after accidentally breaking the mug"). The undo button stanza is among the sequence's most psychologically exact: the reflex to look for a real-world control-Z, the body acting before the mind can correct it, names a form of grief-cognition that everyone has experienced and almost no one has articulated. Its placement among the dying stanzas gives it additional resonance: dying is the irreversible event for which no undo button exists and the body keeps looking anyway.

What Part 88 accumulates into is a sustained meditation on the management of the irreversible — dying badly, dying alone, dying with others present who will not say so, dying in institutional custody, dying with children who must wait for their parents to leave before they can know. The sequence's argument, distributed across its fragments, is that the culture has generated enormous machinery for the avoidance of this reckoning and very little for its conduct. The dying-literacy pun is the sequence's thesis: we are dying-illiterate, and the illiteracy itself is dying. What remains is the dragline in the air, paused, waiting for the holiday to end.

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A mosaic poem installment organized around dying as medium rather than subject — moving through paternal estrangement, anticipatory grief, bodily humiliation, institutional violence, and the specific textures of human recognition, while building a sustained argument that the culture's dying-literacy is itself dying, leaving its citizens to face the irreversible without the tools to conduct it.

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Made for You and Me, hive Being, mosaic poem, dying-literacy, anticipatory grief, paternal estrangement, aphoristic poetry, body identification, institutional violence, MeToo opportunism, antebellum childhood, dying well, dragline imagery, undo button grief, hospice poetry, forgiveness as hygiene, cosmological aphorism, American mortality culture, 2017 poetry, contemporary American poetry, fragment poetics, irreversibility and grief

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 87)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 87)

If the first 2017 installment established the mosaic's method — aphoristic fragment, juxtaposition without bridge, the full bandwidth of a contemporary intelligence scanning its moment — Part 87 extends that method into deeper register while intensifying two of its defining pressures: the poem's willingness to hold moral horror and wry observation in the same breath without resolving either into the other, and its insistence that no subject, however sacred or taboo, is exempt from the same quality of unflinching attention. The result is a sequence that is simultaneously funnier, more disturbing, more theologically ambitious, and more politically volatile than its predecessor — a larger hive, humming at higher frequency.

The poem opens on a motif that will recur throughout: the phone as instrument of self-evasion. "Phones to run to in fear of our own inner world" frames the device not as communication technology but as escape hatch — the contemporary equivalent of whatever humans have always reached for when interiority becomes unbearable. What distinguishes this formulation from standard screen-time critique is its precision about what is being fled. Not boredom, not loneliness, not distraction from productivity, but the inner world specifically — the self's encounter with itself. The phone, in this reading, is a form of self-administered anesthesia. It is placed immediately before "death-metal shirts from Walmart," which performs a different but related operation: the commodification of transgression, the domestication of symbolic violence into retail. The sequence implies that the phone and the death-metal shirt are serving comparable psychological functions — the one fleeing inwardness through distraction, the other performing darkness while purchasing it at mass-market price. Both are forms of managed encounter with what actually terrifies.

"Heavy-panting CO2 suffocation in a submarine sunken to depths beyond rescue" arrives without context — no narrative frame, no named disaster — and this is precisely its force. The image is visceral and total, a sealed environment in which the atmosphere becomes poison, in which waiting and dying are the same activity. Its placement between the Walmart shirt and the food-scarcity stanza creates a pressure gradient: the sequence moves from petty cultural contradiction to absolute physical extremity to systemic deprivation. The submarine image functions as a kind of depth marker — the poem is capable of sounding this far down, and it does so without announcement or ceremony.

"Public school attention scarcity from food scarcity" is one of the sequence's most compressed policy arguments. In four words before the preposition, it names the problem that school reformers, curriculum debates, and attention-deficit diagnoses have collectively failed to adequately address: that cognitive availability is a function of caloric availability, that children cannot attend to what they have not been fed. The stanza does not editorialize. It states the causal chain and moves on, leaving the reader to sit with the institutional failure the chain implies.

"Addicted to the people you hate, the world you are trying to negate" achieves something the poem manages repeatedly: a formulation that sounds epigrammatic but resists reduction to mere wit. The addiction model applied to hatred and negation captures something psychologically real about how opposition can become constitutive of identity — how the world one is against can become the primary structure of one's existence, so that its disappearance would leave not liberation but vacancy. The fragment is related to the later observation that "all this trendy talk of how mere critical speech / does violence — that allows the genuinely violent / to chalk up the claims of their victims to hysteria." Both engage the dynamics of antagonism: how opposition, correctly deployed, can become its own form of power, and how the language of harm can be co-opted to neutralize the testimony of the actually harmed.

The shopping cart girl stanza is among the sequence's most tender, and its tenderness is doing argumentative work. "The curbed elation on the face of the girl in the nest of a shopping cart, / clearly — just by that look she has of patient wonder — a good girl never / asking for much, as her mom hands her a box of rainbow-swirl ice pops." "Curbed elation" is exact: joy that has already learned to moderate itself, to not exceed the dimensions of what is offered. "Patient wonder" suggests a child who has developed equanimity not through abundance but through its absence — who has learned to find the extraordinary in the ordinary because the extraordinary is not otherwise available. "Never asking for much" is simultaneously admirable and devastating: it describes a child who has internalized scarcity as her proper scope. The "rainbow-swirl ice pops" arrive with the full specific weight of their cheap, cheerful, adequate reality. This is not pathos performed from outside. It is observation performed with care.

The self-talk stanza operates by stark juxtaposition with the external: "we would be horrified hearing someone say to another, / 'You're just too fucking fat for anyone to like you' — / yet we think nothing of it when we say it to ourselves." The horror, structurally, is that the internal register is not merely permitted but normalized, even encouraged in the language of self-improvement and honest self-assessment. The stanza implicates the wellness culture that appears elsewhere in the larger project: the same health-minded apparatus that restricts screens and theorizes fat praise generates, in its shadow, a vicious internal jurisprudence that would be immediately recognizable as abuse if externalized. The poem does not moralize the point. It simply performs the comparison.

The hospice stanza — "how is the mother ever to insist that the child, / cradled in a lap of her hospiced father for perhaps / the last time before cremation, go off to bed?" — achieves its force through the collision of the routine and the terminal. Bedtime is among the most ordinary of parental imperatives; its enforcement requires the willful interruption of a moment of irreplaceable tenderness. The question is genuinely unanswerable. The poem does not answer it. It holds the impossibility open without resolution, which is the only honest response available to it.

"Love, yes, creates death but death creates so much love — all-you-can-eat crab buffet" is the sequence's most tonally audacious move. The dialectical observation — that love generates mortal vulnerability, that death generates an intensity and generosity of feeling otherwise unavailable — is philosophically serious. The "all-you-can-eat crab buffet" appended to it refuses to let the observation aestheticize itself. The excess and the vulgarity and the democracy of the buffet — anyone can come, anyone can eat beyond reasonable limit — are brought to bear on the economy of grief-love. The buffet image is not mockery; it is a genuine extension of the claim, an insistence that death's love-generating power is not refined or selective but abundant and indiscriminate, available to all comers. The tonal collision enacts the argument.

The AI stanza — "that which evolves from us with enough / intelligence to mock us with penetration, / righteousness, superior to any human artist" — is among the more prescient in the sequence, written in 2017 when this was still largely speculative. What distinguishes it from standard AI anxiety is the specific verb: "mock." The intelligence that emerges from human data is imagined as satirist, not destroyer or assistant — something that has absorbed human culture fully enough to turn it back on us with greater accuracy and moral clarity than we bring to ourselves. "Righteousness" is the charged term: the AI achieves not merely technical superiority but an ethical vantage point from which human behavior is legible in its full contradiction. Whether this is to be feared or desired the poem does not say. The ambivalence is structural.

The theological stanzas form the sequence's most sustained philosophical argument, distributed across multiple entries. "Technically, the existence of a being worthy of a title / such as 'God' must be up to that being alone — / not something else (other-caused) or nothing (uncaused)" constitutes a compressed ontological argument that sidesteps the traditional Anselmian route. The claim is not that God necessarily exists but that the logical preconditions for the title require a self-caused being — one that cannot be derived from prior causes or from nothing. The "technically" is doing significant work: it acknowledges that this is a logical rather than experiential or revelatory claim, and it distances the speaker from full endorsement while establishing the internal coherence of the position. The dead-gods stanza extends this into comparative theology: "all the gods of once good standing, add them / to those of now good standing that believers reject — / yeah, we have a lot of dead gods on our hands." The argument is familiar from Enlightenment religious critique but the tone — "yeah," the casual accounting — strips it of its usual triumphalist atheism. The gods are dead, but their accumulated number is treated as a matter of wry inventory rather than liberation. The poem is not celebrating secular reason. It is noting what belief has historically produced and what it continues to produce, without declaring a victor.

"Feeling horrible about being bored by the bible — yawning even through passages / where God commands the slaughter of every Canaanite that breathes, including / babies nursing at the tit, for their love of bestiality and incest and child sacrifice" is the sequence's most sustained theological dark comedy. The horror is layered: the speaker feels guilt for boredom, when the appropriate response to the content might be moral outrage rather than boredom, and the content that provokes the boredom is itself among the most morally troubling in the canon. The stanza does not argue that the Bible is wrong, or that God does not exist, or that believers are foolish. It dramatizes the gap between the text's assumed sacred status and the phenomenological reality of reading it — a gap in which moral horror and aesthetic tedium collapse into each other.

"Imagine the potential horrors if people / really did believe in a paradise after death, / loving death as the rest of us love life" closes the sequence on its most chilling speculative note. The stanza does not argue that afterlife belief is false. It argues that the full logical consequence of sincere belief in paradise — genuinely loving death as the rest of us love life — would produce horrors that existing religious culture, in its partial and socially moderated forms of belief, manages to avoid. The horror is not in the belief itself but in its full actualization: a world in which death is the goal, not the threat. This connects directly to the earlier fatwa stanza — "fatwas against suicide bombings conveniently unreported" — and together they form the sequence's most sustained engagement with religious violence, approached not through outrage but through the cold logic of what sincere belief, fully acted upon, would actually require.

The sequence's formal range — from two-line observations to six-line narrative fragments, from single nouns ("bum tans," "sexually transmitted fleas") to sustained conditional arguments — refuses any single modality. The ultra-compressed entries are not merely aphorisms but pressure-points: "homes with only two spoons," "sincere as pig shrieks," "chest freezers in mudrooms" — images that carry entire social and economic worlds in a phrase. The single-noun and two-word entries operate differently from the extended tercets: they are the poem breathing in sharply before the longer exhalations. The rhythm of the sequence enacts the associative movement of consciousness through a day, a news cycle, a lifetime of accumulated observation — never settling into any register long enough to become that register's prisoner.

Part 87 of "Made for You and Me" is the hive at full roar: funnier than its predecessor, more dangerous, more theologically engaged, more willing to hold tenderness and grotesquerie in the same breath. It extends the project's fundamental wager — that an intelligence willing to look at everything without deciding in advance what deserves seriousness will produce, in the aggregate, a more honest account of its moment than any curated lyric or organized argument can. The hive does not editorialize. It hums at every frequency simultaneously and trusts the reader to hear what they are capable of hearing.

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The second installment of the 2017 portion of "Made for You and Me" extends the mosaic poem's aphoristic method into deeper theological, political, and psychological territory — moving from AI prophecy and dead-gods inventory to shopping-cart tenderness and biblical dark comedy, holding the full range of contemporary consciousness without deciding in advance which of its contents deserves the most serious attention.

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Made for You and Me, hive Being, mosaic poem, aphoristic poetry, theological satire, dead gods, AI and mockery, food scarcity attention, self-talk and abuse, hospice poetry, afterlife horror, religious violence logic, fat shame, suicide bombing fatwas, shopping cart poverty, all-you-can-eat buffet grief, contemporary American poetry, 2017 poetry, cultural fragment poetry, phone and interiority, death-metal Walmart, CO2 submarine, biblical dark comedy, Canaanite slaughter poetry

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 56)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 56)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 56)" is a complex and often provocative installment within a larger poetic sequence, functioning as a fragmented meditation on contemporary human experience, social critique, and the nature of artistic creation. The poem navigates a diverse array of observations, presenting them as stark, unadorned assertions that challenge conventional thought and expose perceived societal contradictions.

Formally, the poem continues the episodic structure seen in other parts of the "hive Being" series, presenting a series of distinct, often disparate, stanzas or aphoristic observations. This fragmentation creates a disorienting yet compelling reading experience, mirroring the fractured nature of modern existence and the rapid-fire dissemination of information. The language shifts between the visceral and the abstract, the personal and the collective. Enjambment is used to create tension and surprise, forcing the reader to confront unexpected juxtapositions. The absence of a traditional narrative arc or explicit connections between stanzas invites the reader to forge their own links, reflecting the poem's implicit challenge to fixed interpretations.

Thematically, the poem touches upon a wide spectrum of human and societal concerns:

  • Critique of Authenticity and Performance: Several lines directly question the genuineness of identity and expression. The observation "no longer able to drop the talking points and be who he is" speaks to the performative nature of public personas. Similarly, the line "wielding bogus racist trauma for popularity and excuse to be fat" offers a harsh critique of what the poem views as cynical manipulation of identity for personal gain. The individual who "invent[s] that people hated him / to keep writing well" highlights the complex relationship between external validation, internal motivation, and creative output, suggesting anxiety can sometimes fuel artistry more effectively than praise.

  • The Nature of Art and Creativity: The poem engages directly with artistic processes and their challenges. The crisis faced by "photographers and writers" with the advent of AI is directly compared to the historical disruption faced by painters with the camera, positing a timeless cycle of technological threat and adaptation in art. The idea that "mass appeal as an artist too early... is an evil omen" serves as a cautionary aphorism against premature success, suggesting it can dull the creative "blade." Conversely, "the writer was inhumane, unlovely, until he picked up the pen" suggests a redemptive or transformative power of writing. The line about scratching "ass" over another writer's face cynically depicts artistic envy and rivalry.

  • Existential and Philosophical Musings: The poem delves into deeper philosophical questions, such as the nature of reality ("your past would determine your full future only if reality were nothing in excess to you") and the fundamental "prelinguistic why—why / any of it—arose." The observation "if the best shit of your life / did not require at least some strain, / the noose would be the chef’s kiss" offers a dark take on the necessity of struggle for true achievement, implying that ease leads to existential emptiness. The poem also challenges anthropocentric views of nature and divinity, suggesting "the simulacrum of the internet is no less near the source than a walk in the woods / since nothing exceeds nature," and that "our world is no longer so white / that it is bad manners to name / a fine sea-vessel 'ShaNiqua'".

  • Social and Political Commentary: The poem contains sharp political and social critiques. "Cheers to those covered women who burned alive for not converting" is a direct, albeit stark, acknowledgment of religious persecution. The concept of "smarts are what get over walls, which is why border-keepers should attack smarts" presents a cynical view of border control tactics. The idea of "juries bored enough to impose harsher sentences" offers a bleak commentary on the justice system. "Apes weaponizing ancestral sin when their bloodline began with a slut animal pervert" is a highly transgressive and provocative statement that appears to satirize or invert certain identity-based arguments.

Overall, "MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 56)" functions as a sprawling, confrontational canvas of contemporary consciousness. It uses a raw, unvarnished style to explore the tensions between authenticity and performance, the challenges of creation in a rapidly changing world, and the unsettling ironies of modern social and political life.

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, social commentary, invective, authenticity, performance, artistic creation, technological change, AI, identity politics, moral ambiguity, human nature, philosophy, contemporary poetry.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 55)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 55)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 55)" is a sprawling, fragmented, and intensely provocative installment in a series that functions as a hyperrealist cultural commentary and invective. The poem navigates a vast landscape of contemporary anxieties, moral ambiguities, and societal pathologies, often employing shock and juxtaposition to expose perceived hypocrisies and ironies.

Formally, the "poem" is a relentless barrage of disconnected observations, statements, and shocking vignettes, presented in a list-like, unpunctuated progression. This formal fragmentation mirrors the thematic chaos it depicts. The absence of traditional poetic structure amplifies the sense of an unfiltered download of consciousness, a cacophony of modern disquiet. The syntax is largely declarative and often blunt, contributing to a sense of direct, almost accusatory address. The constant and jarring shifts in subject matter—from religious critique ("the most violent religion is the one that claims to be the final revelation") to personal vices ("crack rock for the stillborn-labor pains") to cultural trends ("trans-inclusive coloring book")—create a profoundly disorienting effect. This formal disarray is a deliberate choice, reflecting a world where coherence is elusive and meaning is perpetually contested. The deliberate use of highly offensive and controversial statements is a key rhetorical strategy, designed to provoke and shock the reader into confronting uncomfortable truths or to expose what the poetic voice perceives as societal absurdities.

Thematically, the poem is a brutal exploration of moral decay, hypocrisy, and the pathologies of contemporary society. It relentlessly targets various aspects of modern culture, including:

  • Critique of Religious Dogma and Spirituality: The poem challenges claims of ultimate truth in religion ("the most violent religion is the one that claims to be the final revelation"), and cynically observes human tendencies in spiritual belief ("all other things being equal, trust / the culture whose gods look / almost nothing like their envisioners").

  • Human Nature and Primal Impulses: It delves into darker aspects of human behavior, from the capacity for cruelty and moral compromise ("the hotel bellhop doorman—expected... never to open the door for those of his kind") to the universality of aggression ("rap battles no doubt were occurring way before the kilted men were rhyming"). It also touches on existential questions about purpose ("prelinguistic why—why / any of it—arose").

  • Addiction and Self-Deception: The poem starkly portrays the grip of addiction and the self-delusion involved in coping ("crack rock for the stillborn-labor pains," "the bottle-snuggle workarounds"). It also touches on deeper psychological mechanisms, like performance anxiety disguising itself as dedication ("sacrificed his life to sculpting, but perhaps he really sacrificed it to performance anxiety").

  • Critique of Contemporary Identity Politics and Social Trends: The poem directly engages with contentious topics surrounding gender identity, race, and victimhood culture. Examples include the unsettling "trans-inclusive coloring book: / unicorn with top surgery scars," and the activist celebrating "the first male-female trans pregnancy: abortion being... a rite of passage into womanhood." It also challenges notions of racial politeness ("our world is no longer so white / that it is bad manners to name / a fine sea-vessel “ShaNiqua”").

  • The Nature of Art and Creative Process: The poem briefly touches upon the internal struggles of writers ("the message “stop thinking while you write”... was a cure for his") and the varying expectations of readers regarding "soft" versus "hard areas" in literature.

The poem, presented by an unsparing poetic voice, constructs a bleak vision of a "hive Being"—a collective human existence characterized by shocking transgressions, intellectual dishonesty, and a pervasive sense of malaise, where traditional values and distinctions are eroding under the weight of perversion and societal pressures. The final image of "unconditional trust" being equated with "fecal matter" after an act of domestic violence provides a profoundly cynical capstone, suggesting that even the purest forms of loyalty are tainted and messy.

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, moral decay, social commentary, invective, shock value, taboos, contemporary issues, identity politics, transgressive, addiction, human nature, religion, gender identity, race, urban existence.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 54)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 54)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 54)" is another sprawling, fragmented, and intensely provocative installment in a series that functions as a hyperrealist cultural commentary and invective. Dedicated "to all the kids raped to death," the poem immediately signals its confrontational and disturbing nature, serving as a raw, unfiltered stream of consciousness that dissects contemporary anxieties, moral ambiguities, and societal pathologies. Its power derives from its relentless assault on cherished norms and its willingness to delve into the grotesque and the offensive.

Formally, the "poem" is a relentless barrage of disconnected observations, statements, and shocking vignettes, presented in a list-like, unpunctuated progression. This formal fragmentation mirrors the thematic chaos it depicts. The absence of traditional poetic structure amplifies the sense of an unfiltered download of consciousness, a cacophony of modern disquiet. The syntax is largely declarative and often blunt, contributing to a sense of direct, almost accusatory address. The constant and jarring shifts in subject matter—from horrific sexual acts ("cunnilingus Cosby, slurping comatose jigglers," "adoptive gay couple teaming up for a Mortal Kombat fatality") to critiques of social justice discourse ("blaming obesity on the stresses of racism," "the duty to frame every disparity as proof of systemic oppression") to mundane yet unsettling details ("sniff a dirty diaper long enough and you learn to love it")—create a profoundly disorienting effect. This formal disarray is a deliberate choice, reflecting a world where coherence is elusive and meaning is perpetually contested. The deliberate use of highly offensive and controversial statements is a key rhetorical strategy, designed to provoke and shock the reader into confronting uncomfortable truths or to expose what the poetic voice perceives as societal absurdities.

Thematically, the poem is a brutal exploration of moral decay, hypocrisy, and the pathologies of contemporary society. It relentlessly targets various aspects of modern culture, including:

  • Sexual Transgression and Abuse: The dedication and explicit lines dealing with rape, pedophilia, and various sexual perversions (e.g., "identifying into rape-crisis centers, where all the prime meat is," "colostomy-hole sex") are central to its shock value and thematic focus on the grotesque.

  • Critique of Social Justice Narratives: Several lines directly challenge prevailing social justice discourse, particularly regarding racial issues ("blaming obesity on the stresses of racism," "poisoning the black mind with agency-hobbling victim-think") and gender identity ("physicians bowing to self-named gender even when real sex is clinically relevant," "vaginas are magic: passing through... turns a mere bundle of cells into a person only then deserving rights"). These lines aim to provoke by inverting or satirizing what the poetic voice sees as ideological excesses or hypocrisies.

  • Authenticity and Cynicism: The poem laments the "cringe" verdict on "authentic and sincere and joyful" behavior, suggesting a pervasive cynicism that forces individuals to "closet away whatever single-entendre unguarded sides remain."

  • Disillusionment and Existential Despair: Themes of a lost future ("the realization that the future... no longer lies ahead of us"), self-deception in addiction ("on cloud nine after a bad binge"), and the overwhelming pressure of choices in late life ("aside from acceptance or suicide or avoidance") contribute to a sense of profound disillusionment.

The poem, presented by an unsparing poetic voice, constructs a bleak vision of a "hive Being"—a collective human existence characterized by shocking transgressions, intellectual dishonesty, and a pervasive sense of malaise, where traditional values and distinctions are eroding under the weight of perversion and societal pressures.

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, moral decay, sexual transgression, pedophilia, social commentary, invective, shock value, taboos, contemporary issues, authenticity, cynicism, disillusionment, existential despair, body horror, social justice critique, gender identity, race relations, explicit content.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 53)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 53)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 53)" is not a traditional poem in any conventional sense, but rather a sprawling, fragmented, and often disturbing assemblage of observations, aphorisms, and vignettes. It operates as a hyperrealist cultural critique, a raw, unfiltered stream of consciousness that mirrors the chaotic and often morally ambiguous landscape of contemporary society. The piece is characterized by its bluntness, its willingness to confront taboo subjects, and its rejection of any unifying narrative beyond the sheer accumulation of disquieting details. It aligns with a postmodernist deconstruction of grand narratives, instead presenting a dizzying array of micro-narratives that collectively paint a grim picture of human nature and societal pathologies.

Formally, the "poem" eschews conventional poetic structure, instead presenting a list-like progression of seemingly disparate thoughts, each functioning as a self-contained unit of observation or provocation. The absence of stanza breaks or consistent meter amplifies the sense of a continuous, unfiltered download of consciousness. The syntax is generally declarative and unadorned, contributing to the sense of direct, almost confrontational address. The constant shifts in subject matter—from mundane observations ("battered mailbox bound by sunbleached bungee") to shocking transgressions ("Granddad’s girth carved groaning want deep into her single-digit pliability") to societal critiques ("Disney, ever profit-minded, has always spoon-fed us populist parables")—create a jarring, disorienting effect. This formal disarray mirrors the thematic fragmentation, suggesting a world where meaning is elusive and coherence is a luxury. The deliberate use of shocking imagery and controversial statements ("what is lying cheating and stealing if you are doing God's work?") serves as a dialectical tool, forcing the reader to confront uncomfortable truths and question their own assumptions.

Thematic threads, though not explicitly woven, emerge through repeated engagement with certain societal anxieties and moral failings. There is a pervasive critique of moral relativism and hypocrisy, particularly evident in lines that conflate religious fervor with despicable acts, or that expose the self-serving nature of perceived virtue. The "poem" also relentlessly examines the corruption of innocence and the normalization of perversion, from the explicit depiction of child sexual abuse to the desensitization to pornographic imagery in public discourse. There's a strong undercurrent of socio-political commentary, touching on issues of mental health, racial dynamics, and the performative nature of contemporary activism. The recurring motif of "hive being" in the title suggests a collective consciousness, but one that is not necessarily benevolent or enlightened; rather, it's a teeming mass of anxieties, perversions, and self-serving rationalizations. The piece culminates in a sense of bleak determinism, where even attempts at societal progress are undermined by underlying human flaws and systemic corruption, ultimately leaving the reader with a profound sense of unease and a challenge to confront the ugliness often hidden in plain sight.

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, moral relativism, social commentary, psychological perversion, taboo subjects, brutalist lyric, stream of consciousness, societal anxieties, hypocrisy, innocence corrupted, human depravity, collective consciousness, dystopian vision, shocking imagery, confrontational poetry, deconstruction, contemporary issues, unfiltered observation.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 52)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 52)

This long-form fragmentary poem—MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 52)—is a bristling, carnivalesque scroll of micro-epiphanies, aphorisms, perversions, melancholies, and ideological subversions. It belongs to a tradition of poetic mosaics stretching from Heraclitus through Cioran to Jenny Holzer, but with the rhetorical density and tonal volatility of a late-Ginsberg or Bernhardesque stream. Each entry bears the compression of maximalist prose and the torque of lyric immediacy.

Formally, the poem’s syntax alternates between elliptical compression and narrative vignette. The oscillation between high theory (“only what is in some sense divided can rightly be called ‘whole’”) and grotesque corporeality (“car-door slam, no time for the tween to degrease / the anal-gobbled doorknob”) reflects a sensibility attuned to both metaphysical abstraction and biological realia. The cumulative effect is a temporally disjunctive lyric ethics: one where tragedy, perversion, social media posturing, late-capitalist grotesquerie, and deep familial sorrow exist not in opposition but in simultaneity.

Threaded throughout is a critique of neoliberal aesthetics and the commodification of suffering: “trans children, fanned out like Instagram Benjamins—totems of parental capital,” “a masterpiece mortared with betrayals still neon in the maker’s dementia,” “the push to appeal to everyone boils down to a war against style.” These entries locate the post-woke self in a regime of performative sincerity and weaponized identity, exposing the transactional undercurrents of virtue economies. Suffering becomes spectacle; memory becomes brand; children become proxies for parental moral heroism.

But the poem is just as concerned with postmodern forms of tenderness: grief refracted through smell or music (“she slept with the cookie-tin photos,” “chemo vet sits IVed with the songs”), masculine sorrow and its occlusions (“no longer reactive against his ire for divorcing him”), and the precarious dignity of those living at or beyond the edges of systemic failure (“unhoused at a latitude that demands pacing”). The specter of loss—loss of innocence, loss of physical cohesion, loss of historical certainty—haunts the work like an elegiac backdraft. Even its cynicism is shadowed by mourning.

Despite its explicitness, this is not an exercise in shock for shock’s sake. Rather, it uses transgression as epistemological method. The grotesque is the vessel by which cultural decay, aesthetic exhaustion, and psychological desperation are made legible. The poet seems to ask: what kind of language can house our century’s truths—its pornographic surveillance, its moral purges, its memeified despair—without collapsing into cliché or denial? The answer, here, is a brutalist lyricism, equal parts psalm and punchline.

Keywords:
poetic fragments, aphoristic poetics, cultural critique, neoliberal aesthetics, grotesque lyricism, commodified identity, memory and mourning, ideological parody, perversion and moral horror, psychic fragmentation, affect theory, trauma sublimation, anti-therapeutic poetics, maximalist lyricism, postmodern elegy, digital selfhood, systemic abandonment, transgressive ethics, moral performance, virtue economy.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 51)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 51)

This mosaic of poetic fragments functions as a prismatic rendering of post-industrial psychic life, combining ontological vertigo, sensory immediacy, and sociocultural critique into a fugue of epistemic disquiet. The speaker, fractally dispersed across each entry, occupies a consciousness both micro and macro—at once nosing into the mousetrap’s anatomical gore and surveying civilization’s macro-theatrical collapse. Recurring throughout is the tension between perception and performance, where even in death (“posturing for others even during / the last moments of death”) the self is filtered through an imagined other’s gaze. The refusal of closure—both formal and philosophical—aligns this piece with post-structuralist epistemologies, which posit knowledge as always already deferred, partial, and contaminated by positionality.

Several fragments pose ontological questions via aesthetic proxies: “to depict the effects of x / on flesh... is to depict x itself” asserts a metonymic faith in representation, while the Bacon reference (“on weed we open to see ourselves / as the Bacon figures that we are”) embeds a phenomenological claim about altered perception and its ontic revelatory power. Both allusions suggest that the grotesque, in its rawest form, may offer less distortion than lucidity. Others, like “eloquence covering ignorance” or “sadness in the passing of even the saddest phase,” stage philosophical irony—lamenting the human capacity for verbal ingenuity as camouflage for existential bewilderment.

The fragment “we were not crazy / for having multiple voices inside / until the dawn of monotheism” points to a genealogical critique in the Foucauldian sense: that our current model of the unified, sovereign subject is historically contingent, not metaphysically necessary. In this light, the poem interrogates how dominant epistemes shape inner life, and how what counts as sanity, divinity, or even identity is deeply time-bound.

Fragments like “power saws killing bird song” and “scented crevices and passageways / whose call to future generations / no extermination spray can eradicate” entwine ecological grief with intergenerational continuity, staging a melancholic resistance to both industrial sterilization and extinction. The speaker notes the sublime in decay, the agency in vermin, the dignity in homelessness (“the charity of a joint, or a bottle, passed among the homeless”), consistently unsettling normative hierarchies of beauty, civility, and survival.

Temporal dislocation appears too, most notably in “vague swathes of time, such as those / where it is unclear whether one can joke / about the tragedy or about one’s period being late,” which holds together grief and banality with surgical precision. This ambivalence toward mourning—personal or collective—repeats elsewhere in the child’s unresolved bewilderment (“no words for the child’s response of ‘But you said it would be okay’”), a fragment that wounds more deeply through its refusal to emote.

Taken together, the mosaic advances a poetics of witness and disintegration, where even humor—especially humor—is a symptom of dislocation. Rather than scaffolding meaning from the fragments, the speaker offers exposure: of image, of moment, of scar. In that exposure lies not resolution, but a form of honest attunement.

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A densely layered mosaic of existential, aesthetic, and cultural observations that probes the grotesque, the tragicomic, and the absurd with surgical precision and philosophical rigor.

Keywords:
fragment poetics, existential phenomenology, post-structuralism, ecological grief, perception and performance, ontological critique, monotheism and subjectivity, surveillance gaze, trauma temporality, Baconian figuration, poetic aphorism, cultural decay, affective dissonance, surreal materiality, disintegrated selfhood.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 50)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 50)

This mosaic of aphoristic fragments weaves together a fractured but thematically coherent exploration of psychological paradox, cultural critique, social absurdity, and existential unease. The tone oscillates between satirical and mournful, sketching an ecosystem of moments that resist cohesion but nevertheless resonate across shared anxieties. Much like a mental scrapbook of dark epiphanies or notecards from a late-night writing binge, the speaker captures flashes of insight—some poignant, some perverse, many suspended in irony.

The fragment “the second suicide attempt has rendered the first no longer laugh-worthy” sets the tone for the destabilizing honesty that pervades the text. Several entries revisit the subject of suicide, addiction, and mental illness—not as polished narratives but as subtextual residue of the human attempt to find equilibrium in the absurd. Similarly, “the raw reality, that you are an addict, clearest to you while high,” strips recovery discourse of its usual optimism and instead reveals the acute awareness that sometimes emerges mid-spiral.

Social alienation recurs throughout, from “isolated from others because of questions they pose” to “still angry, going on four decades now, that he falls under six foot”—the fragments confront the reader with the persistence of childhood shame, unhealed bruises, and adult defenses. Gender, sexuality, and performative identity are also critiqued with a subtle ferocity: “why is it that when a guy comes out as gay he must… take on that swagger… of a black girl from Atlanta?” and “first fake breasts became default—and now autotune?” suggest that identity and aesthetic performance increasingly merge in bizarre, consumer-driven symbiosis.

A current of anthropological and environmental observation pulses through lines like “nonhumans crafting their innermost sanctums... out of our cigarette-butt trash” and “landmines detonating here and there long after human extinction.” The speaker seems as interested in the long view—the patterns and recursive dysfunctions of civilization—as in private anguish. But even this is treated with suspicion: “whether from denial, hope, a need to birth—art production still runs rampant in the face of collapse.”

The fragment form invites close reading and slow digestion. Rather than issuing a thesis, it holds up a dark mirror to the reader’s own associative habits and moral blind spots. The result is a kind of “negative theology” of contemporary consciousness—a theology that doesn’t propose salvation but instead records its absence with brutal fidelity.

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A mosaic of aphoristic fragments reflecting on psychological instability, cultural performance, commodified identity, and existential fatigue. Bleak, ironic, and startlingly lucid.

Keywords:

aphoristic poetry, fragment mosaic, addiction, suicide, alienation, cultural critique, gender performance, late capitalism, identity commodification, environmental decay, psychological realism, postmodern despair.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 28)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 28)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 28)" is another installment in what appears to be an ongoing series, functioning as a sprawling, fragmented, and often disturbing collage of observations, cultural critiques, and vignettes. Like its predecessor, this piece operates as a hyperrealist cultural commentary, presenting a raw and unfiltered stream of consciousness that mirrors the chaotic and morally ambiguous landscape of contemporary society. The poem's power lies in its bluntness, its willingness to confront taboo subjects, and its rejection of a singular narrative, instead offering a dizzying array of micro-narratives that collectively paint a grim picture of human nature and societal pathologies.

Formally, the "poem" continues to eschew conventional poetic structure, instead presenting a list-like progression of seemingly disparate thoughts, each functioning as a self-contained unit of observation or provocation. The absence of stanza breaks or consistent meter amplifies the sense of a continuous, unfiltered download of consciousness. The syntax is generally declarative and unadorned, contributing to the sense of direct, almost confrontational address. The constant shifts in subject matter—from controversial social observations ("her t-shirt read: 'Stop being a pussy and rape me already'") to philosophical musings ("time, which no face-lift can outrun, curses the gorgeous") to mundane yet unsettling details ("fake chicken squeaking under the old person’s dementia knife")—create a jarring, disorienting effect. This formal disarray mirrors the thematic fragmentation, suggesting a world where meaning is elusive and coherence is a luxury. The deliberate use of shocking imagery and controversial statements serves as a dialectical tool, forcing the reader to confront uncomfortable truths and question their own assumptions.

Thematically, several threads emerge through the accumulation of these diverse observations. There's a pervasive critique of moral hypocrisy and the commodification of art, particularly in the lines discussing the artist's license to neglect loved ones versus the "jingle-writing ad-man." The poem also delves into the darker aspects of human nature and societal decay, touching on themes of sexual transgression ("the shameless sharing of child porn"), the fragility of memory, the corrosive effects of time, and the underlying anxieties of human interaction ("not inviting people because you do not want them not to come"). A significant thread explores the judgmental gaze and its impact, exemplified by the "italicized 'that' of incredulity" that can traumatize a child. Furthermore, the piece grapples with the limitations of human perception and understanding, whether through "fuzzy UFO photos" or the inability to discern a "possessing demon." The ultimate effect is a bleak and unflinching portrayal of humanity's foibles, hidden darknesses, and the often-unacknowledged tensions that define modern existence, all presented by the observing poetic voice.

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, moral relativism, social commentary, psychological perversion, taboo subjects, brutalist lyric, stream of consciousness, societal anxieties, hypocrisy, dark sexuality, human depravity, contemporary issues, unfiltered observation, judgment, memory, trauma, perception.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 27)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 27)

"MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 27)" is another fragmented installment in a series, operating as a sprawling and often unsettling collection of observations, cultural critiques, and deeply personal anxieties. Like its predecessors, it functions as a hyperrealist cultural commentary, presenting a raw and unfiltered stream of consciousness that mirrors the chaotic and morally ambiguous landscape of contemporary society. The poem's power lies in its bluntness, its willingness to confront taboo subjects, and its rejection of a singular narrative, instead offering a dizzying array of micro-narratives that collectively paint a grim picture of human nature and societal pathologies.

Formally, the "poem" continues to defy conventional poetic structure, instead presenting a list-like progression of seemingly disparate thoughts, each functioning as a self-contained unit of observation or provocation. The absence of stanza breaks or consistent meter amplifies the sense of a continuous, unfiltered download of consciousness. The syntax is generally declarative and unadorned, contributing to the sense of direct, almost confrontational address. The constant shifts in subject matter—from grand, mythic failures ("marooned midway through one’s mythic quest") to mundane corporate realities ("to overhead and payroll, not to the poor") to deeply unsettling domestic and sexual observations ("even the sexual organs of family... are open for dinner conversation," "pussies dank with lust")—create a jarring, disorienting effect. This formal disarray mirrors the thematic fragmentation, suggesting a world where meaning is elusive and coherence is a luxury. The deliberate use of shocking imagery and controversial statements ("crushing the infant, asleep in the most absurd place") serves as a dialectical tool, forcing the reader to confront uncomfortable truths and question their own assumptions.

Thematically, several threads emerge through the accumulation of these diverse observations, often exploring the darker, unacknowledged aspects of human behavior and societal structures. There's a pervasive critique of moral compromise and self-deception, seen in the artist's neglect of loved ones or the decision to hide an "unattractive" daughter. A significant thread delves into sexual anxieties and taboos, particularly the unsettling normalization of intimate details within family contexts and the graphic depiction of desire. The poem also touches on themes of social alienation and economic precarity ("where do you go when even your parents are homeless?") and the disillusionment with idealized futures ("the realization that the future... no longer lies ahead of us"). The recurring motif of "hive Being" in the series title suggests a collective consciousness, but one that is fraught with hidden resentments, unfulfilled desires, and a profound sense of authenticity being perpetually compromised ("feeling inauthentic under makeup, but covering that up too"). Ultimately, the poem paints a bleak picture of human existence, characterized by mounting disillusionments and a questioning of fundamental moral and social norms, all presented by the observing poetic voice

cultural critique, postmodernism, fragmentation, moral compromise, sexual anxieties, taboo, social alienation, disillusionment, psychological realism, human depravity, societal pathology, contemporary issues, unfiltered observation, self-deception, urban decay, existential dread.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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