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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?
You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.
In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.
My Journey
I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.
The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.
Call for Co-Conspirators
This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.
Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).
You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.
My Hope
Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.
People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.
My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.
What to Expect
My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.
By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.
But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.
Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!
Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.
Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.
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Crank Shaft (ROUND 3)
"Crank Shaft" is a study in the irreducibility of fractured consciousness. Its narrator sits immobile on a curb in the aftermath of a child's death — a death he witnessed, could not prevent, and is implicated in by the precise act through which he was prevented from acting. The piece does not pursue his guilt as a legal or even moral verdict. It pursues something harder: the way consciousness, under the pressure of catastrophic self-implication, does not consolidate into remorse or clarity or collapse, but continues generating its ordinary traffic — desire, calculation, self-interest, animal solidarity, spiritual hunger, mortality, artistic ambition — at the same frequency it always did, except now without the possibility of relief or discharge.
The title operates at multiple levels simultaneously, and its multiplicity is the piece's thesis in compressed form. "Crank shaft" is, mechanically, the component that converts reciprocal piston motion into rotational force — the machine's engine of transformation, turning one kind of movement into another. Cars have crankshafts. The car that kills the boy is driven by one. But "crank" as verb is also slang for masturbation, and "shaft" carries its own phallic register. The narrator was cranking when the shaft of the car's wheel passed over the boy's skull. The title fuses these two motions — the man's reciprocal autoerotic action and the mechanical rotation of the killing wheel — into a single mechanism, implying that the two chains of causality the narrator watches converge are not coincidental but structurally linked: joined in the crankshaft of the title before the event even occurs.
The opening paragraph achieves its effects through deliberate impoverishment cut with a single startling sensory intrusion. "I have not gotten up from the curb. The ambulance had taken the body long ago. I just sit here." The sentences are meager, sequential, declarative. But into this minimalism arrives the smell of the officer's menstruation — "the copper sourdough of her menstruation" — a detail whose precision is as shocking as its placement. The narrator's erotic register is operational even here, even now, even with the police beside him taking his words about a dead child. The smell is gone but he keeps sensing her presence. His consciousness cannot exempt even this moment from its ordinary appetitive attention. This is the piece's central psychological claim established in its first paragraph: the machinery does not stop for catastrophe.
The expanded stillness passage is the revision's most significant formal achievement. The earlier version's quiet neighborhood hush is here given a specific and devastating genealogy: the children whispering in the wake of a parental spat that escalated from screams and shattered glass into something else entirely — "throttled taunts gushing out from the pretzeled mound of mommy on the floor ('Beat it up, nigga! Beat that asshole up!')" — with the children deliberately kept as audience: "Keep it open! Let em see the shit." The neighborhood hush is now rhymed explicitly with the hush of children who have witnessed their mother's orgiastic absorption in violence and sex simultaneously, kept watching by adult insistence. This is the Gonzo Domestic Squabble template transposed into the narrator's own street: the children made witnesses to adult intensity they cannot process, the animals registering what the humans cannot. The dogs have stopped their chronic digging and whining. The stillness is the stillness of a neighborhood that has absorbed too much.
The Georgie passage is the piece's single most accomplished writing, and it earns that designation through the specificity of its attention. Georgie is fully named, fully individuated — a runt found two summers back, a feral cat whose forced adulthood in New York extremes has left him with "needs neglected," who seeks the narrator's hand "with a crying desperation" even as that same hand triggers in him the "spiritual bind between having to make biscuits and having to maintain the sleepless guard." The Bach comparison — the braced sidewinding walk described as "the haunted-castle organ opening of Bach's 'Toccata and Fugue in D minor, BWV 565'" — is the piece's most extravagant simile, and it earns its extravagance because the precision is exact: every muscle fiber fighting itself, the body contorted enough to produce a specific, unmistakable sound in the observer's imagination. Georgie does not come to the narrator today. He slinks back into coverage. The cat that has always permitted the narrator's touch has read something in the scene, in the man, that warrants withdrawal. The piece does not explain what Georgie knows. It asks the question — "What does he know?" — and leaves it open.
The retrospective account of the mother's ass and the boy's death proceeds as in earlier versions, but two revisions sharpen the psychological argument. First, the interior monologue during the voyeurism is now more explicitly voiced — "Bet that shit taste so fuckin good" — making the erotic consciousness more audible, more present, less retrospectively constructed. Second, the crucial exculpatory move of the marathon analogy now concludes with "People masturbate" — a sentence of devastating baldness. Having built the logical case that bodily states do not disqualify action, the narrator collapses the case into its simplest possible statement. The argument reaches its terminal point and the terminal point is nothing more than a declaration of ordinariness. People masturbate. The child is dead.
The unreleased load comparison — "The unreleased load has befuddled my loins like Georgie" — is the revision's most darkly comic and most psychologically precise detail. The narrator's physically unresolved state is compared to the cat's psychic rack: both bodies in a bind between competing needs, neither able to fully discharge or fully guard. The comparison refuses the dignity of clean suffering. The narrator on the curb is not a man in grief; he is a man in an unresolved physiological state that the afternoon's events have made unresolvable, compared to a feral cat with a complicated relationship to being touched. The loins and the cat belong in the same sentence. The piece knows this.
The mortality passage is the revision's most significant addition and it transforms the piece's meaning at its deepest level. The narrator has chosen art over family — "I have chosen the pursuit of glory over family" — and has chosen not merely glory but the most demanding and least rewarded form of it: to stand on an astral plane alongside Nietzsche and Emerson, which "requires enough truth telling to be hated while alive." The physical inventory that follows — the hip flexibility declining, the sparse crown, the nighttime urination, the coming day when seated breathing will require rest — is not self-pity but accounting. The narrator is taking stock of what his choices have produced and what they have cost. "Who now is left at my side to tolerate my repetitions and back my tall tales? Will there be anyone even to fake like they are interested? What hand will guide me back to before the womb?" These are not rhetorical questions. They are the questions of a man who has organized his life around solitude and art and is now sitting on a curb with no one coming for him, understanding perhaps for the first time the full cost of that organization. His son is present but the narrator notes it and immediately returns: "But I cannot stop working." The addiction to art is the crankshaft that has been running beneath everything else. The child's death is not the piece's only subject. The narrator's life is.
The intrusive sexual fantasy — slurping the mother, whispering "I'm gonna give you another baby" — returns and is if anything more devastating in this version because it follows directly from the mortality passage. The man who has just inventoried his aging body and his chosen solitude now fantasizes about giving a grieving mother another baby. The libidinal unconscious's attempt at reparation — giving back what the crankshaft took — is continuous with the piece's larger argument about what the narrator has cost himself and others through his chosen mode of existence.
The closing movement achieves its effect through the replacement of sitting with lying. "I lie back." The earlier version held the narrator upright on the curb; this version surrenders him to the ground. "I can feel the planet's core latched to my bones, its implacable suckle — all draw, no release." The gravitational image gives the inertia a cosmic dimension: the narrator is not merely tired or numb but held by a force operating at the level of mass and planetary attraction, a force that is all draw and no release, which is the piece's final description of the crankshaft mechanism. Everything has been drawn in — desire, guilt, mortality, art, the dead child, the unreleased load, the cat's knowledge — and nothing has been released. The sun bothers his face. He has reason to get up. But how can I? The question is not rhetorical. It is genuine. The piece ends where the crankshaft has always been: turning without being able to stop, unable to convert its motion into anything that would allow rest.
Formally, the piece's syntax continues to move between meager declarative sentences and long recursive clauses in a rhythm that mimics the narrator's oscillation between numbness and eruption. The Georgie passage is the piece's longest and most syntactically elaborate, and its elaborateness is earned: the cat's complexity of being — the spiritual bind, the braced sidewinding walk, the Bach comparison — requires the long sentence because the cat cannot be rendered in the short one. Everything else tends toward the short sentence because the narrator's consciousness, in its catastrophic state, cannot sustain elaboration for long before the elaboration collapses back into the declarative. The prose thinks and stops. Thinks and stops. The crankshaft turning.
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A revised and deepened prose piece in which a narrator's vigil on a curb after a child's death — caused by his masturbation — accumulates new dimensions: the cop's menstrual smell, the neighborhood's orgiastic backstory, Georgie the cat rendered in Bach, a mortality passage about art chosen over family, and a gravitational closing image of a body held to the ground with all draw and no release.
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Crank Shaft, psychological fragmentation, trauma prose, erotic consciousness and catastrophe, moral culpability literature, Georgie the cat, Bach Toccata and Fugue, art versus family, mortality and artistic ambition, masturbation and catastrophe, intrusive fantasy, gravitational inertia, close reading, Hypocorism, crankshaft mechanism
Visiting My Wife’s Family Over the Holidays (ROUND 1)
The poem's content represents a conscious violation of numerous social and moral taboos, most significantly in its depiction of sexual predation toward a minor. The narrator's relationship with the "not one day over thirteen" niece-in-law is characterized by a profound power imbalance that he exploits systematically. The poem documents a process of grooming that begins with seemingly innocent interactions ("pluck her eye crust") and escalates to explicit sexual contact ("flashed sashimi: cunt cake"). The narrator's internal monologue reveals his awareness of the transgressive nature of his desires ("what would be the biggest mistake"), yet he proceeds without remorse or hesitation.
The poem's setting—a Christmas holiday visit to family in Trinidad—creates a powerful contrast between the supposed sanctity of familial and religious occasions and the narrator's predatory actions. This juxtaposition is reinforced through cultural references to Trinidadian life (Caroni rum, Piarco airport, Soca music, Carnival) that ground the narrative in a specific postcolonial context. The narrator's position as an outsider returning "home" to Trinidad complicates the power dynamics, suggesting a neocolonial relationship wherein he exploits both his familial status and his American privilege to prey upon a vulnerable local girl.
The language of the poem is characterized by a deliberate collision of registers, moving seamlessly between the domestic ("bundt cake," "rum cake") and the pornographic ("pyt threesome," "cunt cake"). This linguistic blending serves to normalize the narrator's predatory desires by embedding them within the fabric of everyday life. The poem's title itself creates a jarring juxtaposition between the mundane domesticity of "Visiting My Wife's Family over the Christmas Holidays" and the explicit nature of the content, immediately establishing a tone of dissonance that permeates the entire work.
MADE FOR YOU AND ME 3: hive Being (Stanzas 2018--part 6)
"Made for You and Me: Hive Being (Stanzas 2018 — Part 6)" is the most formally various installment of the series, ranging across its widest tonal spectrum — from pure image to sustained philosophical argument, from domestic bathos to ontological vertigo — while maintaining the distributed intelligence that has defined the project throughout. Where Part 5 was the series' most philosophically dense, Part 6 is its most emotionally various: entries about grief, bodily humiliation, domestic intimate life, and the specific textures of ordinary despair sit alongside logical arguments about determinism and ethics, meditations on identity and echo chambers, and political observations about the mechanisms of social justice culture. The hive here is at its most fully human — which is to say, it is simultaneously thinking and suffering and laughing and noticing, all at the same frequency.
The opening entry — "cripple porn" — is the series' most compressed provocation, two words that do the work of an entire cultural analysis by naming a genre and trusting the naming to be sufficient. The entry does not explain, contextualize, or editorialize. It places the phenomenon in the hive's field as a datum, a fact of contemporary appetite, and moves on. The compression is the argument: that this exists, that it can be named in two words, that the two words are sufficient, is itself a form of cultural diagnosis.
"Enough empties fill the rusty shopping cart for a nice bottle of dinner" — the entry achieves its devastating effect through the precision of its economics. The rusty shopping cart of collected empties, the return value of those empties calculated against the cost of a bottle — the arithmetic of poverty and alcoholism conducted with the attentiveness of genuine financial planning. "A nice bottle of dinner" is the entry's most precise inversion: the bottle is dinner, and the modifier "nice" insists on the dignity of the preference, the maintenance of standards within constraint. The entry does not pity. It accounts.
"Wondering if your presence will taint the family photo since you are so soon to die" — the entry places terminal illness inside the domestic ritual of the family photograph with a specificity that makes the abstract concrete: the dying person calculating their own visual contamination of the record, wondering whether the knowledge of their proximity to death will shadow the image retrospectively. The family photo is usually organized around permanence, around the production of a record that will outlast the occasion. The dying person's presence introduces the counter-pressure: the knowledge that the record will be shadowed by what came shortly after it.
"Rejecting the best statesmen, but not the best brain surgeon, for cheating on his wife" — the entry identifies a specific inconsistency in contemporary moral reasoning: the application of private conduct standards to public roles with varying degrees of rigor depending on the stakes. The statesman's character is treated as relevant to his fitness for office; the brain surgeon's character is bracketed in favor of his technical competence. The entry does not resolve the inconsistency. It names it and leaves the reader to sit with the question of where the principled distinction lies.
"Is it possible to fear the worst without denominating what it is?" — the entry is the section's first purely philosophical question, and it addresses a genuine feature of anxiety: the way that the most debilitating fear can be structureless, without object, resistant to the naming that would make it manageable. "Denominating" — giving it a denomination, a specific value, a name that would make it exchangeable with other named fears — is the entry's precise verb for the cognitive operation that anxiety resists. The question leaves open whether such structureless fear is possible or whether fear always has an implicit object even when it cannot be named.
"Since everything has a sufficient reason (such that every agent's ways and deeds / are locked in place by antecedent factors), and since ought implies can, ethics — / normative at its core, concerned with what ought to be — has no ultimate footing" — this is the section's most formally complete philosophical argument, and it is compressed into three lines with the economy of a proof. The argument moves from the principle of sufficient reason — established in an earlier poem in the series — through the compatibilist pressure point of ought-implies-can to the conclusion that normative ethics, if determinism is true, loses its ultimate justificatory foundation. If every action is locked in place by antecedent factors, then no agent could have done otherwise, which means that the "ought" of ethical prescription has nothing to grip. The entry does not linger over the argument or offer its refutation. It states it as a consequence that follows from premises the series has already been examining, and moves on.
"Funding is available to preserve / only those endangered creatures / more conspicuously charismatic" — the entry names a specific and documented bias in conservation economics: the preferential allocation of preservation resources toward species whose appearance generates human sympathy — the panda, the tiger, the elephant — over those whose ecological importance is equivalent or greater but whose appearance does not. "Conspicuously charismatic" is exact: the charisma must be visible, legible to the general public's aesthetic response, to generate the funding. The entry is simultaneously a conservation critique and a broader observation about the relationship between legibility and resource allocation in any domain where scarcity requires prioritization.
"That navel-gazing posture engenders / the very protruding belly you loathe / and keep checking for: a human story" — the entry operates on its double meaning with unusual gentleness for the series. The navel-gazing posture — the head-down, inward-turning position of excessive self-scrutiny — literally produces the physical condition it is scrutinizing: the downward gaze creates the appearance of the belly it is checking for. The entry names this as "a human story" — the mechanism by which self-monitoring produces its own object, the way attention to a feared condition can generate or amplify the condition itself — and the designation "a human story" is both compassionate and diagnostic. This is what we do. This is what we are.
"Present the convicted with data, / and the clutch upon belief tightens; / tempestuous gestures are needed" — the entry names the backfire effect with precision: the empirically documented phenomenon by which presenting people with evidence contrary to their beliefs produces not revision but entrenchment. The conclusion — "tempestuous gestures are needed" — is the entry's most provocative move. It does not advocate for reason; it identifies reason's failure mode and suggests that what moves people is not evidence but the emotional force of the gesture. This is not a celebration of irrationalism but a description of human persuasion mechanics that the entry refuses to sentimentalize away.
"No one left to remember that event, you feel as if from some alien planet" — the entry names the specific alienation of outliving one's contemporaries, the way that shared memory constitutes a form of belonging and its erasure produces the experience of having originated elsewhere. The "alien planet" is not hyperbole but phenomenological description: the person who has outlived everyone who remembers what they remember experiences the present social world as a place whose inhabitants do not share their reality, which is the functional definition of being from somewhere else.
"The father commands the beaten child, 'Kneel now / and beg for God's mercy,' but with rage contrived / to hide from himself his talking mostly to himself" — the entry is the section's most psychologically penetrating portrait of a specific family pathology. The father's invocation of God as the authority before whom the child must kneel is identified as self-deception: the rage is contrived — performed, manufactured — to disguise from the father himself that the prayer he is demanding from the child is the prayer he cannot make for himself. He is asking his own beaten child to perform the supplication he needs to perform. The entry names this mechanism with a precision that is its own form of indictment.
"Remorse never directly alters the past, / anxiety sometimes directly alters the future, / but both spur us to achieve time travel" — the entry is a compressed phenomenology of the two dominant negative affects and their temporal orientations. Remorse is backward-facing and impotent with respect to its object — the past cannot be altered — but it drives a form of psychic return to the past that constitutes its own mode of time travel. Anxiety is forward-facing and occasionally effective — sometimes the anticipated bad thing is prevented — and it drives a form of psychic projection into the future that constitutes another mode. Both emotions are forms of temporal displacement from the present, which the entry identifies not as pathology but as a specific human capacity, painful but also a mode of access to times other than now.
"What is worse, pretending to be who you are or pretending to be someone else?" — the entry is the section's most condensed identity paradox. The first option names inauthenticity disguised as authenticity: the performance of a self one has constructed and mistakes for discovery. The second names the more ordinary inauthenticity of role-playing a different self. The question holds open which is worse without resolving it, and its genuine philosophical content lies in the implication of the first option: that pretending to be who you are is possible, which means that the self one performs as "who you are" may be as constructed as any other performance.
"Wanting stability enough that you hide from chaos, that which builds stability" — the entry names a specific avoidance paradox: the conditions necessary for the development of genuine stability are the conditions being avoided in the name of protecting existing stability. The entry does not moralize the avoidance. It names the mechanism — the way that the desire for stability can become the precise instrument of its own frustration — and moves on.
"Identity is merely whatever we insist it is (girl, black, Little Mermaid, God) so long as / we are not social creatures — and so the more we retreat into our echo bubbles (easy / with cyberspace) the more legitimate it is to say our identity is whatever we insist it is" — the entry is the section's most formally complete social media argument, and it turns on the conditional "so long as we are not social creatures." The argument is not that identity claims are illegitimate but that their legitimacy is a function of the social conditions under which they are made. In a fully social environment — one in which identity must be negotiated with others, tested against their perceptions, modified by encounter — identity cannot be simply whatever one insists it is. The retreat into echo chambers, however, creates the conditions of partial isolation in which the insistence can be maintained: the bubble provides the social validation without the social friction that would otherwise pressure the identity claim toward revision. The entry identifies the feedback loop: isolation enables the insistence, the insistence requires the isolation, the technology makes both easier.
"The urgency with which students imitate the social-justice protests of the 60s has them / convinced that dead issues are worth blind fury — if only such innocence did not stir / such evil: spoiling blacks into invalids and demonizing whites into told-ya-so backlash" — the entry identifies a specific generational mechanism: the imitation of historical protest movements whose battles have been largely won, the urgency borrowed from those battles being applied to conditions that are not equivalent, and the consequences of that misapplication named without euphemism. The "told-ya-so backlash" is the entry's most politically precise designation: the way that the excesses of one political tendency produce the conditions for the strengthening of the tendency it most opposes. The entry does not argue against social justice; it argues against the specific mechanism of performative urgency applied to misidentified targets.
"Shore returns of sea burials" — the entry is pure image, and it is among the series' most resonant. The sea burial is the final dispersal, the commitment of remains to a medium that promises dissolution without return. The shore return names what the sea actually does: it brings things back, deposits them on the sand, refuses to keep what was given to it. The entry does not say what it means. It does not need to.
"There is something extra unsettling / about female serial killers, and likewise / about female white nationalists" — the entry names a real phenomenological response without claiming to fully explain it. The "extra unsettling" is in excess of the ordinary unsettledness that serial killing and white nationalism produce in any form: there is a supplementary disturbance that the female perpetrator generates, and the entry identifies this as genuine rather than dismissing it as mere gender bias. The source of the extra unsettlement — whether it is the violation of gendered expectations, the disruption of the maternal archetype, or something else — is left for the reader to locate.
"Biological males should be allowed to swim against, / or even fight, biological females in athletic events, / but let that be done in its own mixed category" — the section closes with its most politically precise resolution to a current controversy. The entry does not oppose transgender participation in athletics; it proposes a structural solution that neither excludes nor conflates. The mixed category preserves competitive integrity while maintaining inclusion: a category defined by biological diversity rather than by the binary that produces the controversy in the first place. The entry's "or even fight" is the section's final comic note — the deliberate escalation to combat sports that makes the absurdity of the current arrangement vivid without requiring elaboration.
Formally, Part 6 achieves its effects through the widest tonal range of any installment in the series. The movement from "cripple porn" to the determinism argument to "shore returns of sea burials" to the transgender athletics resolution is not random but calibrated: the hive's intelligence moves through registers because the world it is mapping contains all of them simultaneously. The section's formal achievement is its refusal to let any single register dominate long enough to become a position — the comic deflates the philosophical before it becomes pompous, the lyric image interrupts the political argument before it becomes strident, the domestic detail grounds the ontological vertigo before it becomes unmoored. The distributed intelligence holds everything at once, which is the series' definition of attention, and Part 6 is the fullest demonstration of what that attention can sustain.
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The sixth installment of the Hive Being series: the most tonally various section, ranging from determinism and ethical footing to shore returns of sea burials, from the backfire effect to the specific unsettledness of female serial killers, holding the comic and the catastrophic at the same frequency across its widest emotional and philosophical spectrum.
Keywords
Made for You and Me Hive Being Part 6, distributed consciousness, aphorism poetry, determinism and ethics, ought implies can, sufficient reason, echo chambers and identity, social justice imitation, shore returns, female serial killers, backfire effect, conservation charisma, time travel and remorse, close reading, Hypocorism, hive being series
Gonzo Domestic Squabble (ROUND 6)
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Gonzo Domestic Squabble
"Gonzo Domestic Squabble" is a poem about the inheritance of erotic structure—the way that childhood witness of adult orgiastic life, incomprehensible at the time of its occurrence, installs a template in the nervous system that surfaces decades later as compulsion, arousal, and the desperate need to insert oneself into other people's intensity as the only available form of mattering. Its narrator is a dorm-room voyeur who escalates from watching a street fight to shooting at the combatants with a pest control rifle, and the poem tracks this escalation as psychological recapitulation: each stage of the present action triggers a memory that reveals the childhood origin of the compulsion, until the two scenes—dorm window and childhood bedroom—are fully superimposed, the same groove playing in different bodies at different times.
The title announces its generic instability. "Gonzo" invokes Hunter Thompson's mode of total subjective immersion—the observer who cannot remain outside what he observes, whose participation distorts and transforms the event beyond recovery. "Domestic Squabble" is the bureaucratic minimization, the term that makes intimate violence sound like a scheduling disagreement. The collision of these registers is the poem's governing irony: the squabble is gonzo, uncontainable, metastasizing through the narrator's psyche and out the window in pellet fire, and the gonzo is domestic, rooted in the home, in the mother, in the childhood bedroom where the template was first and ecstatically installed.
The opening image—"Drunken shouts tied into a sloppy knot in the grass"—renders the street fight as textural event before it becomes visual. The knot is both the entanglement of two bodies and the acoustic tangle of their voices, imprecise and adhesive. "Tit flopping / in halogen butter" introduces the erotic register immediately alongside the violent one: the woman's exposed breast in the orange-yellow cast of a parking lot lamp, "butter" making the light warm and slightly nauseating, a domestic substance misapplied to a scene of public brutality. "Took the mount, grunting berserk / hammerfists to his skull"—the woman initially dominant, her violence rendered in combat sports vocabulary that aestheticizes and reports simultaneously. "But he got hold of her hair"—the turn is a single line, its brevity performing the speed of the power shift.
"They had a life" is the poem's first moment of pure psychological revelation, arriving without transition. It is precisely their having a life—a shared history, a union however brutal—that produces the narrator's arousal and his sense of exclusion. "Hyperaroused helplessness" names the specific affective compound with precision: arousal and impotence simultaneously, the body responding to what the self cannot enter. "Gleeking that unforgotten brine"—gleeking is the involuntary ejection of saliva from the submandibular gland, and the poem deploys the term with physiological exactness: the mouth responding autonomically, producing the "unforgotten brine" that connects present arousal to its childhood source before the poem has consciously named that source. The body remembers first.
"Electricity prickled my pinkies / like in childhood"—the nervous system's recognition of a familiar template, the pinkies as the body's farthest outposts registering the charge. The childhood comparison arrives with the casualness of long familiarity: the narrator has always known this connection, even if he has never articulated it. The pest control rifle is reached for in this state—not as a weapon in any ordinary sense but as an instrument of insertion, of ending the helplessness the arousal has made unbearable. "I needed in on it, in on their fusion"—the repeated preposition performing the desire for penetration of their shared reality.
The first memory surfaces here, and it is the poem's central disclosure: "like when my mom and her men fought in a fuck coil / fecal with the piston of a glucking fist."
"Fuck coil" superimposes sex and violence into a single compound—not metaphorically but literally, the mother's encounters with her men being simultaneously combative and orgiastic, indistinguishable to the child's developing perception. The fisting is explicit in "the piston of a glucking fist"—the wet, visceral onomatopoeia of "glucking" rendering the sound with a phonetic precision that makes the word feel coined from the act itself. The mother is not a victim here. She is a participant in her own extremity, her body the site of an intensity the child witnesses without the interpretive framework to understand it as chosen, as wanted, as ecstatic.
"Her shark eyes / dead to Teddy and me"—the mother's dissociation during these encounters is the dissociation of orgiastic absorption, not of suffering. The shark eyes are the eyes of a creature in the grip of its own nature, operating below the level of social recognition, not because she is being destroyed but because she is elsewhere, in the place extreme pleasure takes a person. The child reads vacancy where there is in fact a different kind of presence—one foreclosed to him by his age and the incomprehension the poem names directly: "as far as a child could know, / the sugar of the verboten still latched inside cookie jars." The cookie jar is exact and devastating: the child knows the sugar exists, can smell it perhaps, but cannot access it, cannot name it, cannot metabolize what he is witnessing as anything other than chaos and exclusion. The verboten is still latched inside. He does not yet have the key.
This is the poem's most precise psychological mechanism: the mother is not traumatizing the child through her suffering but through her pleasure—through her orgiastic absorption in an intensity that excludes him, that makes him a nonagent, less than zero, present but not participating, witnessing but not comprehending. The template being installed is not one of violence-as-damage but of intensity-as-the-only-real-thing, of the body in extremity as the site of an aliveness that ordinary existence cannot approach. Saint Teresa's ecstasy and the mother's are structurally identical in this sense: the body seized by something beyond it, the face indistinguishable from agony, the witness left outside the experience with only its effects to read.
"She re-blew: lowing like a cow / in oniony estrus"—the mother's vocalization during orgasm, rendered in the animal register without condescension: the lowing is the sound of a body in heat, the estrus naming the biological depth of the arousal. She is not performing for an audience in the calculating sense; she is in the grip of something that happens to have an audience. "Sweeping my hand across the blub; / plop-plopping it down like puddle boots"—the mother takes the boy's hand and places it against her, using him as an instrument of her pleasure with the same orgiastic unselfconsciousness that governs everything else she does in these moments. The child does not understand what his hand is doing or why. He is being incorporated into an intensity he cannot read. The "plop-plopping" is both specific and phonetically exact, the sound inseparable from the act.
"Her squirt / pelted Teddy and me—sheets of deadened thuds, rug / in a cloudburst—with that musk of hot pennies saltier / with my tears"—the mother's orgasm reaching both children, the squirt experienced as weather, as something that happens to them from outside without targeting them, the musk of it mixing with the narrator's tears. He is crying not because he is being harmed but because he is excluded from something whose intensity he can feel without being able to enter. The tears are the tears of the nonagent: present at the feast, unable to eat. "'Mommy stop! Mommy!'"—the child's plea is ambiguous in retrospect. It is the only language available to him for an intensity he cannot otherwise address. It is not necessarily a plea to end her pleasure but the only utterance the overwhelmed child can produce in the face of something too large for him.
The present scene and the childhood memory achieve full superimposition in the final stanza. The speaker's voyeuristic stance collapses into absolute optical and psychological consumption: "I kept feasting, drowned in flesh, and uppercuts kept boring. I could see / the belly heaving from within—the girl sobbing like her." This climactic phrasing bridges the adult's visual gluttony back to the infant's oral fixation in the flashback—the child sucking the nipple in goo-goo-gaga translated into an adult psychological devouring of the spectacle. By stripping away redundant descriptors, the text leaves "the belly heaving from within" stark and cinematic. "The girl sobbing like her" closes the loop entirely. The woman in the grass and the mother in the bedroom are the same figure, the present scene a recapitulation of the original in which the narrator, now armed with a pest control rifle, can finally inject himself into the intensity that excluded him as a child. The shots are the plop-plopping hand transposed: an instrument being used, finally, in the chaos that matters.
Formally, the poem's three stanzas move through escalating disclosure and superimposition: present scene and arousal, childhood memory beginning to surface, full merger of past and present until they are indistinguishable. The accumulating clause structure—semicolons and dashes refusing full stops—enacts the compulsive momentum of the narrator's state, the inability to pause once the groove has begun to play. The phonetic texture throughout—"glucking," "gleeking," "sclack, sclack," "plop-plopping," "goo-goo-gaga," "lowing like a cow"—keeps the poem in the body, refusing the cognitive elevation that would allow the reader to process the material from a safe distance.
"Gonzo Domestic Squabble" is ultimately a poem about how orgiastic intensity witnessed in childhood—incomprehensible at the time, installed below the threshold of understanding—structures adult desire and compulsion more completely than anything the conscious mind subsequently processes. The narrator shoots because the groove is playing. The groove was cut by a mother who was Saint Teresa in a bedroom, whose ecstasy was real and total and indifferent to its witnesses in the way that all genuine ecstasy is indifferent—which is to say, not cruel, but absolute. The child made a nonagent by her absoluteness becomes the adult who cannot witness intensity without needing to enter it. The poem renders this mechanism from inside, with a completeness that is its own form of seriousness.
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A poem tracing adult erotic compulsion to childhood witness of a mother's orgiastic life — her ecstatic fisting, her squirt reaching her children, her hand guiding the boy's against her — a template of intensity-as-the-only-real-thing that resurfaces in a dorm window, an air rifle, and the need to enter other people's chaos as the only available form of mattering.
Keywords
Gonzo Domestic Squabble, childhood erotic witness, orgiastic mother, trauma template, intensity and compulsion, Saint Teresa ecstasy, fisting and childhood, erotic inheritance, nonagent psychology, superimposition of memory, voyeurism and intervention, contemporary confessional poetry, close reading, Hypocorism, gonzo narrative form
Seventh Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
Let's workshop the seventh section to my story, novel-length now, that examines the intricate power dynamics and linguistic structures at play in a man's passionate relationship with a girl he deems too young
Sixth Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
Let's workshop the sixth section to my story, novel-length now, that examines the intricate power dynamics and linguistic structures at play in a man's passionate relationship with a girl he deems too young
Amor Prohibido (ROUND 2)
“Amor Prohibido" is a poem about the rhetoric of seduction as a fully inhabited voice — eight lines that perform, in real time, every instrument of experienced adult persuasion in sequence, with a fluency that is itself the poem's most revealing quality. The title, borrowed from Selena's 1994 hit about a love forbidden by class difference, reframes the prohibition: what is forbidden here is not class-crossing but age-crossing, and the poem's eight lines are a portrait of how such crossings are verbally engineered — not through dominance or manipulation but through a practiced, attentive confidence that knows what it wants and has learned, through long acquaintance with the world, to read what others need.
The poem is structured as a direct address — a message, a text, a DM — and its form is its argument. It does not describe seduction; it performs it, in real time, on the reader. This is the poem's most formally daring quality: the reader occupies the position of the recipient, and the speaker's rhetoric lands before it can be analytically processed. By the time one identifies the techniques being deployed, they have already been deployed.
The opening word — "Hey" — is the poem's most precise single choice. Not "Hello," which would be formal. Not the recipient's name, which would be intimate in a different register. "Hey" is the calibrated casualness of someone who has done this before, who knows that the first word sets the temperature of everything that follows, and who has chosen a temperature of relaxed confidence that performs the absence of pressure while being entirely purposeful. The "Hey" is a genre: the opening of a specific kind of message from a specific kind of man, recognizable before the second word arrives.
"I think you should let me spoil you a bit" — the modal "I think" softens without weakening. It performs tentativeness while delivering a directive: you should let me. "Spoil" activates the entire economy of gifts, attention, and resource transfer that structures the appeal — and "a bit" miniaturizes it, making the spoiling sound casual, low-stakes, easily accepted without obligation. The sentence performs the posture of a man who is merely sharing a thought while knowing exactly what thought he is sharing and what effect it is calibrated to produce.
"Your semester starts soon, right?" — the question mark is doing enormous work. The speaker almost certainly knows when her semester starts. The "right?" performs uncertainty he does not have, inviting her confirmation, drawing her into the conversation as a participant rather than a recipient. "So how about / we do an Airbnb, a little getaway, before school / sinks its claws too deep?" — "we" absorbs her into a plan already forming. "A little" miniaturizes again, making the getaway sound modest and easily fitted into any schedule. The revision from the earlier version's "sinks its claws in you" to "sinks its claws too deep" is the poem's most precise refinement: the claws are now already in, already present, the question only of depth — which positions the getaway not as a rescue from something approaching but as relief from something already underway. The urgency is more intimate, the speaker's attentiveness to her actual situation more demonstrated.
"I know that's forward" — the acknowledgment of forwardness is the seduction's most elegant move. By naming the quality of the proposition himself, the speaker demonstrates self-awareness, performs honesty, and inoculates against the charge before it can be made. The acknowledgment is not an apology but a preemptive disarmament that clears the ground for the poem's central declaration.
"But I know what I want. And I know enough / about this world, lonely as it is short, to know / what you need." — the volta arrives here, and the revision from the earlier version is the poem's most significant deepening. "Lonely as it is short" is the new phrase, and it transforms the speaker's claim entirely. In the earlier version, "I know enough about this world" was a credential of experience, of worldliness. Here it is something more vulnerable: the speaker's knowledge of the world is knowledge of its specific texture — lonely and short — and it is from within that knowledge, from having lived inside that loneliness and that brevity, that he reads what she needs. The claim is no longer purely a credential of experience. It is a credential of having felt what the world actually feels like from the inside, which is a different and more intimate authority. He is not above the world's loneliness; he is inside it, as she is, and that shared condition is the basis of his reading of her need.
"I promise to be a gentleman — / until, of course, you give me the green light." — the closing couplet delivers the proposition's true content. The promise of gentlemanliness is conditional and temporary — "until, of course" — and the "of course" performs the inevitability of the green light as something mutually understood, already implicitly agreed upon, a matter of when rather than whether. The green light is genuinely hers to give: the speaker is not assuming he will take what has not been offered. He is expressing his confidence — earned through attention and through his reading of what she needs — that the offer will be made. The earlier version's "to be otherwise" has been pruned to simply "the green light," tightening the close: no elaboration on what otherwise might mean, just the signal itself, clean and sufficient.
The poem's eight lines enact a complete arc of persuasion: casual opening, spoiling proposition, temporal urgency, self-aware acknowledgment of forwardness, vulnerable credentialing through shared knowledge of the world's loneliness and brevity, and the quiet confidence of the conditional promise. Each move is precise. None announces itself as a move. The fluency is the seduction: a man who has lived long enough in a lonely and short world to know what he wants and to recognize, in someone younger, what she needs — and to say so in a "Hey" that sounds like nothing more than a thought he wanted to share.
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A poem structured as a seductive direct address — eight lines performing experienced, attentive persuasion in sequence, grounded in the speaker's knowledge of a world lonely as it is short, ending with the green light assumed as inevitable by a man who has been paying close enough attention to know what she needs.
Keywords
Amor Prohibido, seduction rhetoric, direct address poem, age gap persuasion, lonely as it is short, green light, Airbnb getaway, Selena amor prohibido, forbidden love, rhetorical analysis poetry, desire and attention, close reading, Hypocorism, DM as poem, adult male seduction
MADE FOR YOU AND ME 3: hive Being (Stanzas 2018--part 5)
Scholarly Essay: "Made for You and Me: Hive Being (Stanzas 2018 — Part 5)"
"Made for You and Me: Hive Being (Stanzas 2018 — Part 5)" is the most philosophically rangy installment of the series, moving between ontological argument, psychological precision, political provocation, and lyric image with a fluency that feels less like juxtaposition and more like a single consciousness operating at full bandwidth. Where Part 4 organized itself temporarily around the anaphoric catalogue, Part 5 returns to the series' purest distributed form: no sustained structure, no formation held, just the hive's omnidirectional attention ranging freely across every register of experience simultaneously. The result is the series at its most characteristic and, in several of its entries, at its most philosophically ambitious.
The opening entry — "a beer-can metropolis on the kitchen table each morning from dad" — achieves its effect through scale and specificity. "Metropolis" is the operative word: not a can or two but a city's worth, an architecture of cans that has accumulated overnight and greets the child each morning as the landscape of the father's inner life. The entry does not editorialize about alcoholism or its effects. It renders the scene as a child renders it — as an environment, as what mornings look like, as the given condition of the kitchen table — and the word "metropolis" carries both the child's awe at the scale and the adult's retrospective recognition of what that scale meant.
"When everyone around you is dying, it seems wrong — unnatural — to go on living" — the entry names a specific survivor's phenomenology with clinical precision: the way that mass bereavement in a community produces a guilt organized around the body's persistence, its refusal to join the dying, its wrongness in continuing. "Unnatural" is exact: survival feels like a violation of the pattern, a deviation from what the environment has established as normal. The entry does not offer consolation or reframe. It names the experience and moves on.
"Turning to the internet to be told that your want is okay — or, in its speak, 'valid'" — "valid" in quotation marks is the entry's most precise gesture. The word has migrated from logic — where validity is a property of arguments, not of feelings — into therapeutic and social media discourse, where it designates the conferral of legitimacy on desire or experience. The entry identifies the specific mechanism: the person does not turn to the internet to understand their want, to examine it, to determine whether it is good or harmful. They turn to be told it is okay. The validation is the product. The internet provides it at scale.
"Insecticide-soaked cotton balls in the nostrils of the dead" — the entry is pure image, no commentary, and its specificity is its meaning. This is a specific funerary or preservation practice, the detail so precise that it constitutes research rather than invention, and its placement in the hive's field without explanation or context performs the series' characteristic trust in the image to carry its own weight. The dead are being prepared. The cotton balls are soaked. The insecticide is doing its work. The entry closes there.
"Patience to pursue star crushes after they wash up" — the entry is the series' most compressed portrait of a specific masculine erotic economy: the man who waits, with genuine patience, for the moment when the actress or celebrity or public figure whose inaccessibility has been the condition of his desire becomes, through the mechanism of career decline, theoretically reachable. The "wash up" is not incidental — it is the enabling condition, the event that converts the star crush from fantasy into prospect. The entry does not moralize this calculation. It names it as a form of patience, which is what it is.
"Singing rapture into crippled forms to uplift them — if only by sparking a drive to dig / deeper — is construed, in a victim era of righteous mediocrity, as an insensitive taunt / against the marginalized (a supremacist ploy even) rather than as love for all mankind" — this is the section's first extended entry, and it addresses the specific contemporary mechanism by which the demand for excellence directed at those who have not yet achieved it is reframed as cruelty rather than care. The entry identifies "righteous mediocrity" as the operative ideology: the protection of existing achievement levels as an act of advocacy, the challenge to exceed them as an act of aggression. The "supremacist ploy" parenthetical names the specific accusation — the conversion of the demand for excellence into racial violence — and the entry's final phrase, "love for all mankind," insists on the motivation that the accusation erases.
"Ill-timed notes sung flat, twitches of the brush beyond borders preordained — in them / he saw only stains to be winced from mind instead of milkable breaks, muses nudging / the stream toward unguessed glory that could wind up crowning them lynchpin stars" — this is the series' most concentrated entry on artistic perception, and its argument is about the relationship between error and discovery. The flat note, the brushstroke beyond the border — these are the accidents that a certain kind of artistic intelligence recognizes as invitations rather than failures, as the muse's nudges toward something the preordained plan could not have reached. "Milkable breaks" is the entry's most precise coinage: the accident that can be worked, extracted, developed into something the original intention could not have generated. The entry identifies the failure to see this — the wincing from the stain — as the artist's deepest limitation, and it does so without sentimentality.
"It is reasonable to trust your gut when something does not feel right, but recognize / that your gut is shaped by outside forces (racist and otherwise): people genuinely felt / something was wrong — toxic — about blacks and whites swimming in the same pool" — the entry is the section's most careful navigation of a genuinely difficult epistemological problem. It does not dismiss gut feeling as a cognitive tool; it accepts its reasonableness as a starting point. What it insists on is the second move: the recognition that the gut has been shaped by forces external to the individual, forces that include but are not limited to racism, and that the feeling of wrongness is not self-validating. The swimming pool example is the entry's evidence: people genuinely felt it, and the feeling was wrong. The entry does not extend this to all gut feelings. It installs a necessary skepticism that the first sentence's reasonableness had opened the door to dismissing.
"However true it may be, do not say / that you will give her a kidney if need be — / at least not after just one bout of phone sex" — the entry is the section's most perfectly timed comic piece, and it earns its comedy through the specificity of its timing caveat. The problem is not the declaration of willingness to give a kidney — that may be entirely true, may reflect a genuine depth of feeling. The problem is the temporal positioning: after one bout of phone sex, the declaration cannot be received as what it may genuinely be. The entry is about the gap between true feeling and legible expression, and it lands as comedy because the gap is real and the advice is sound.
"Selecting how to feel before feeling that way" — the entry names a specific and underexamined psychological phenomenon: the prospective construction of emotional experience, the way consciousness can orient itself toward a feeling before the feeling arrives, shaping its own subsequent experience through the anticipation of it. The entry does not say whether this is adaptive or pathological, conscious or unconscious. It names it as a phenomenon and leaves the evaluation to the reader.
"The glazed eyes of the wizard point guard / dribbling down the court, his look riveted / on nothing but the dynamic panoply itself" — the entry is the section's most purely aesthetic image, and "the dynamic panoply itself" is its philosophically precise designation: the point guard's vision encompasses the entire court as a dynamic system, attending to no single element but to the totality and its movement. The "wizard" is not a nickname but a designation of the specific cognitive mode — the perception of the whole that makes individual genius possible. The glazed eyes are the outward sign of a consciousness operating at a level that cannot be described as looking at anything in particular because it is looking at everything simultaneously.
"Time would pass, so you imagine, even if / everything you were observing were static / because you, observing, would not be static" — the entry is the section's most compressed philosophical proposition, and it makes a genuine claim about the relationship between temporal experience and the observer's nature. Even in a perfectly static universe, time would be experienced because the observer — whose consciousness is itself a process, whose attention moves, whose neurological state changes — is not static. The experience of duration is a function of the observer's dynamism, not the observed world's. The entry is a small phenomenology of time in nine words of conditional reasoning.
"You can give a man everything without everything ceasing to be everything only if / you really give him everything: not just all of natura naturata but natura naturans / (the eternal arche) — turning him, in effect, into ipse esse subsistence: being itself" — the section's most technically philosophical entry deploys Spinoza's distinction between natura naturata (nature as created, the totality of existing things) and natura naturans (nature as creating, the generative principle itself) in the service of a claim about the conditions of genuine gift. To give someone everything in the first sense is to give them the contents of the world; to give them everything in the second sense is to give them the source, the generative principle, the arche — which would turn them into being itself, into ipse esse subsistens, the Thomistic designation of God as subsistent being. The entry is making a precise claim: partial gift, however vast, leaves something withheld. Only the gift of the generative principle itself would constitute the giving of everything, and that gift would transform the recipient into what only God is. The entry is simultaneously a meditation on gift, on theology, and on the impossibility of total giving within the constraints of finitude.
"Satire spotlights stupidity: not only that of those / who think it true and agree, but especially of those / who — despite concord with the author — are offended" — the entry is the section's most formally self-aware, and it applies directly to the series containing it. The double target of satire — the naive reader who mistakes it for sincere advocacy and the sophisticated reader who understands it but is offended anyway — identifies the second group as the more revealing case. To agree with the satirist's actual position while being offended by its satirical expression is to prioritize the form of advocacy over its content, to police the manner of truth-telling rather than attending to the truth being told. The entry is the series' implicit defense of its own methods.
"A society in which people see little hope / even in paying for the funeral of family / should at least invest in suicide booths" — the entry is the section's darkest comic proposition, and it earns its darkness through the logical structure of "at least." The society that has failed to provide its members with even the minimum of dignified death — the affordable funeral — should, by the logic of harm reduction, provide the infrastructure for self-determined exit. The entry does not advocate for suicide; it advocates for consistency, and the consistency it demands from a society that has already failed its people in life is the consistency of following that failure to its logical provision.
"A wicked script rehashed in college bars ('Whites ruin it all!') — a gaslighting script given / the enlightenment ideals and emancipatory norms of western civ ('Yuck!') that lift us / to Sagan stars, shelter the helpless, abolish monkey law (slavery), enshrine rights for all" — the section closes with its most politically direct entry, and it closes with force. The "whites ruin it all" script is identified as gaslighting — the psychological mechanism of making the target of manipulation doubt their own perception of reality — in light of the specific historical record of Western civilization's emancipatory achievements: the Enlightenment's epistemological revolution, the abolition of slavery, the enshrinement of universal rights, the scientific achievement that Sagan's name designates. "Monkey law (slavery)" is the entry's most compressed historical designation — slavery as the law of dominance hierarchies, the law of the strong over the weak, the law that the Enlightenment's emancipatory norms were explicitly designed to abolish. The "Yuck!" parenthetical names the reflex dismissal of this record with the onomatopoeia of disgust, and the entry closes by listing what that dismissed record actually produced. The section ends not with a question but with an inventory, and the inventory is the argument.
Formally, Part 5 is the series' most philosophically dense installment, carrying more entries that sustain genuine argumentative development across multiple lines than any previous section. The range — from beer-can metropolises to Spinoza's natura naturans to the wizard point guard's glazed eyes — is the section's formal achievement: a consciousness that can hold all of these simultaneously, that does not compartmentalize its philosophical ambition away from its comic instinct or its lyric attention away from its political nerve. The hive is at full capacity here, and the distributed intelligence it enacts is, across its range, the series' most complete demonstration of what the form can carry.
Meta Description
The fifth installment of the Hive Being series: the most philosophically ambitious section, ranging from Spinoza's natura naturans and the phenomenology of time to beer-can metropolises and suicide booths, with the series' most concentrated entries on artistic perception, gut epistemology, and the gaslighting of Western civilization's emancipatory record.
Keywords
Made for You and Me Hive Being Part 5, natura naturans, Spinoza, philosophical aphorism, distributed consciousness, wizard point guard, survivor guilt, righteous mediocrity, gut epistemology, satire and offense, suicide booths, Western civilization, Enlightenment emancipation, close reading, Hypocorism, hive being series
Teenie Toffees (ROUND 3)
"Teenie Toffees" is a poem about the displacement of one economy of desire by another — specifically, the moment at which the Girl Scout's official economy of cookies, badges, and door-to-door salesmanship is revealed to have been superseded by a more potent and more generative economy organized around the body itself. The poem does not depict exploitation or victimization. It depicts a girl who has already made the calculation, who has already understood what sells harder than scripture and generates more abundance than a miracle, and who has been found in the act of that understanding — humming, unhurried, in her own front camera.
The title's compound — "Teenie Toffees" — operates through the collision of registers its two words enact. "Teenie" is the diminutive of smallness, youth, the not-yet-fully-formed; "Toffees" is the confection, the sweet, the thing that is simultaneously treat and commodity. Together they produce a compound that sounds like a brand name for children's candy while carrying the erotic freight the poem will make explicit: the teenie is the toffee, the girl is the product, and the market for this product — as the poem will demonstrate — dwarfs anything the Girl Scouts organization has ever moved.
"The Girl Scout, head / made for junior-high hustles / bolder than badges" — the opening establishes the poem's central substitution immediately. The Girl Scout is an official figure of supervised female enterprise: the uniform, the badges, the cookie drive, the institutional framework of merit and achievement. "Head made for junior-high hustles" — "head" carries its anatomical register (the face, the self-presentation, the front-cam image) and its sexual register simultaneously, the double meaning installed before the poem has committed to either. "Hustles bolder than badges" names the substitution directly: the official economy of merit and achievement has been superseded by an unofficial economy whose transactions the badge system was never designed to accommodate and whose boldness the badge system cannot measure.
"Found humming / in her front cam that supreme cookie" — "found" is the poem's most important verb, and its passive construction is its most precise choice. She is not caught, not exposed, not discovered in the sense of being surprised against her will. She is found — encountered in the act, present in the image — and the finding is the poem's occasion without being its judgment. "Humming" carries its musical register — the sound of contentment, of self-absorption, of a person at ease in what they are doing — and its vibrating register, the hum of a body in its own frequency. The front cam is her instrument and her audience simultaneously: she is both performer and producer of the image, the economy entirely under her own management.
"That supreme cookie" — the Girl Scout cookie economy reaches its ironic apex here. The cookie the organization sells door-to-door, the cookie whose varieties are the subject of annual consumer enthusiasm, is here displaced by the supreme cookie: the one that is not in the box, that is not sold through official channels, that requires no troop leader's oversight or parent's permission. "Supreme" is the hyperbolic register of contemporary vernacular — the highest, the most sought, the one that commands the premium — applied to the body as commodity with the same casual confidence the market applies it to anything else it has decided is worth the most.
"A glossy box that scaled / harder than scripture" — "glossy box" extends the packaging metaphor of the official cookie economy into the body's presentation in the front cam: the screen as packaging, the image as product, the gloss of the digital filter as the sheen of commercial desirability. "Scaled harder than scripture" is the poem's first major rhetorical escalation, and it is exact. Scripture scales — spreads, propagates, finds its way into cultures and consciousnesses across millennia — through the mechanisms of faith, institution, and the genuine human need for meaning. What the poem is describing scales through mechanisms more immediate and more powerful in the contemporary moment: the algorithm, the share, the viral image, the economy of attention that moves faster and reaches further than any text the church has ever distributed.
"More generative than loaves or fish / in the hands of Jesus" — the second escalation completes the theological comparison with a precision that is not blasphemy but analysis. The miracle of the loaves and fishes is the definitive scriptural image of generativity: from scarcity, abundance; from five loaves and two fish, enough to feed five thousand. The poem claims that what the girl has found between her thighs is more generative than this — that the economy it can set in motion, the abundance it can produce, exceeds the miracle in its scale and speed. This is not a claim about spirituality but about economics: the attention economy's capacity for multiplication dwarfs any previous model of distribution, sacred or secular.
"Fuzzed between her thighs" — the poem's final image arrives with deliberate anti-climax after the theological escalation. "Fuzzed" is the poem's most carefully chosen word: it names the pubescent body precisely, the hair that marks the threshold of the body's new economic value in the market the poem has been describing, and it carries the soft, slightly unfocused quality of the word itself — not sharp, not clinical, but present, specific, undeniable. The placement "between her thighs" closes the displacement the poem has been performing: the cookie box that was between her arm and her side in the official economy, held out for the customer's inspection and purchase, is now between her thighs in the supreme economy, held out in the front cam for a different market's consumption.
The poem does not moralize the girl's agency or its exploitation. It renders the economic logic with the same analytical neutrality it applies to scripture and miracle: this is what generates, this is what scales, this is what the market — in its wisdom or its catastrophe — has determined is the supreme cookie. The Girl Scout has done what the Girl Scout is trained to do: she has identified the product that sells, found her market, and begun her hustle. That the hustle is bolder than badges is the poem's only evaluative gesture, and "bolder" is a word that does not distinguish between admiration and horror. It simply measures.
Formally, the poem's three tercets move through the substitution the title announces: official economy, displacement, supreme product. The enjambments are the poem's formal engine — "head / made for," "found humming / in her front cam," "scaled / harder than," "loaves or fish / in the hands of Jesus," "more generative than loaves or fish / in the hands of Jesus — / fuzzed between her thighs" — each line break occurring at a point of maximum semantic pressure, where the sentence has committed to one register before the next line redirects it into another. The poem's syntax moves like the economy it describes: always appearing to be about one thing while being about another, the official packaging concealing the supreme cookie until the final image delivers it without apology.
Meta Description
A poem tracing the displacement of the Girl Scout's official cookie economy by the supreme economy of the adolescent body — scaling harder than scripture, more generative than loaves and fishes — rendered through the front cam in which she is found humming, unhurried, in full command of the product.
Keywords
Teenie Toffees, Girl Scout poem, adolescent body economy, supreme cookie, attention economy, scripture and sexuality, loaves and fishes, front cam, generativity and desire, displacement of economies, contemporary erotic lyric, close reading, Hypocorism, pubescent body, viral image economy
Fifth Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
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Fourth Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
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Third Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
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Second Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 3: hive Being (Stanzas 2018--part 4)
"Made for You and Me: Hive Being (Stanzas 2018 — Part 4)" is the most politically extended installment of the series, and it earns that extension through formal innovation: the "a land where" anaphoric sequence that occupies its center is the series' most sustained single rhetorical construction, a litany that accumulates its indictments through repetition until the repetition itself becomes the argument. The hive's distributed intelligence is here organized, temporarily and unusually, around a single grammatical structure — the rhetorical device of the catalogue — before releasing back into the series' characteristic aphoristic scatter. The result is a section that feels simultaneously like the others and like something new: the hive briefly finding a formation, holding it long enough to do specific damage, then dispersing again.
The opening entry — "'you know I woulda raped that pussy if you aint give it me, right? That asshole too!'" — arrives as direct quotation without attribution, speaker, or context. The quotation marks are the entry's only frame. The voice is specific and completely rendered in a single sentence: its vernacular grammar, its retrospective boast, its casual annexation of the second orifice as afterthought, its "right?" seeking confirmation of what it has just threatened. The entry does not comment. It places the voice in the hive's field and moves on. The reader is left holding the sentence, which is the point.
"Lottery tickets, just hoping the weekend will get here for mind-numbing sitcoms" — the entry names a specific configuration of managed despair: the lottery ticket as ritualized hope too small to constitute genuine aspiration, the weekend as the unit of time worth surviving toward, the sitcom as the analgesic waiting at the end of the survival. The three elements form a closed system of low-level endurance that the entry renders without condescension and without uplift, simply as a description of how a significant portion of human time is actually organized.
"Kicking that rock habit for sanctioned Red Bull in sleep-tight conscience" — the substitution is the entry's argument: crack for energy drink, illegal stimulant for legal one, the same neurological craving redirected through a channel the culture has approved. "Sleep-tight conscience" is exact — the person who has made the substitution can sleep, their conscience satisfied by the legality of their new habit, while the underlying compulsion continues unchanged. The entry is not about addiction but about the cultural machinery that designates which compulsions are permissible.
"The appeal of being unclear is that unclear arguments are not so clearly unsuccessful" — this is the series' most purely logical entry, a proposition about rhetorical strategy that is itself a model of clarity. The entry identifies a genuine incentive structure: precision invites refutation; vagueness frustrates it. The entry does not restrict its application to any particular discourse — it is as true of academic writing as of political speech, as true of therapy-speak as of theology.
"A cat pawing and flipping into the air its hobbled prey, wanting the hunt to go on" — the entry is pure image, no commentary, and it is one of the series' most resonant because it refuses the allegorical reading it invites. The cat is a cat. The hobbled prey is a mouse or a bird. The wanting the hunt to go on is feline nature, the predatory intelligence that finds the chase more satisfying than the kill. Whatever human behavior this illuminates — and it illuminates several — the entry does not say. It presents the image and trusts the hive's distributed intelligence to complete the circuit.
"If a stud oohing to the blowjob of her strap-on / is mental illness, the blind caning around / everywhere in public is outright insanity" — the entry applies a reductio to the pathologizing of non-normative sexuality: if the pleasure response to a particular sexual act constitutes mental illness, then the navigational behavior of the visually impaired — caning in public spaces, reading the environment through an extended prosthetic — constitutes a more severe disorder by the same logic. The entry is not dismissing concerns about sexual psychology but exposing the inconsistency and arbitrariness of where pathology gets applied and where it does not.
"Things can matter to machines / sophisticated enough; machines / can give a damn (like us)" — the parenthetical "like us" is the entry's pivot and its most philosophically loaded gesture. The claim that sufficiently sophisticated machines can genuinely care — not simulate caring but actually give a damn — is radical enough. "Like us" then raises the question of whether our caring is itself so different from what a sufficiently sophisticated machine would do as to warrant the distinction we habitually draw. The entry does not resolve this. It plants the equivalence and moves on.
The "a land where" sequence begins here and constitutes the section's formal and argumentative center. The anaphora is borrowed from the rhetorical tradition of prophetic indictment — the catalogue of a society's failures, each introduced by the same grammatical structure, each adding weight to the cumulative charge. What distinguishes this catalogue from its prophetic antecedents is its refusal of moral hierarchy: the entries arrive in an order that is associative rather than ranked, so that "a land where literacy and numeracy are considered evil expressions of whiteness" sits alongside "a land where 'subpar' gets autocorrected as 'Subaru'" without either being designated as more or less serious than the other. The sequence treats the comic and the catastrophic with equal formal weight, which is itself an argument: the culture being catalogued has lost the capacity to distinguish between them.
"A land where literacy and numeracy are considered evil expressions of whiteness" — the entry names a specific and documented phenomenon in contemporary educational discourse, the framing of academic achievement standards as racially coded, as tools of white supremacy rather than as neutral measures of knowledge. The entry does not argue against this framing at length; it names it and places it in the catalogue, where its proximity to other entries performs its own commentary.
"A land of criminalizing comedy" — the entry's compression is its precision. The criminalization is not literal but social and professional: the career-ending joke, the retroactive excavation of old material, the application of contemporary sensitivities to humor produced under different conditions. "Criminalizing" names the mechanism — the conversion of social transgression into something treated with the apparatus of prosecution — without overstating it as literal law.
The catalogue's most politically charged entries cluster in its middle section. "A land where the 'b' in 'black' must be capitalized, but never the 'w' in 'white'" identifies a specific asymmetry in contemporary style guide orthodoxy — one that the entry holds up for inspection without endorsing either the capitalization or its absence. "A land where trauma must be time-stamped, notarized, before even poets can speak it" is the sequence's entry most directly relevant to the book containing it: the demand for credentialed, verified, institutionally legible suffering as the prerequisite for artistic authority, which the entry identifies as a form of bureaucratic gatekeeping applied to the most ungovernable of human experiences.
"A land where we fetishize the primitive — indigenous cosmology on a par with physics" names the specific epistemological collapse of treating all knowledge systems as equally valid regardless of their predictive and explanatory power. The entry is not dismissive of indigenous knowledge traditions; it is skeptical of the political mechanism that places them beyond comparative evaluation, which is a form of condescension disguised as respect. "A land where all kindness is seen as an agenda (as it often is)" — the parenthetical is the entry's most precise move, conceding the empirical basis for the cynicism it names while identifying that cynicism's cost: the environment in which genuine kindness cannot be received as such.
"A land where Beyoncé and Sister Souljah surpass Beethoven and Shakespeare" — the entry names the specific cultural valuation that places contemporary popular artists above the canonical figures of Western artistic tradition not on the basis of comparative aesthetic analysis but on the basis of identity and political alignment. The entry does not argue for Beethoven's superiority; it identifies the mechanism by which the comparison has become impermissible rather than merely contested.
"A land where incest is rape" — arriving near the end of the catalogue, this entry is the sequence's most compressed legal and philosophical provocation. It names a specific position in contemporary discourse — the argument that the power dynamics inherent in family relationships make genuine consent structurally impossible — without endorsing or refuting it. Its placement after fifty-plus entries in the same grammatical structure gives it the same weight as the entries surrounding it, which is the catalogue's governing formal principle and its most unsettling quality.
The sequence releases back into the section's characteristic aphoristic scatter with entries that carry the full tonal range of the series. "Dope-sick mothers renting out / the vicious suckling of their newborns — / 'just the fuckin mouth' — to drug-dealer testicles" is the section's most viscerally devastating entry, and it achieves its effect through the specificity of the quoted speech: "just the fuckin mouth" is the mother's negotiation, her delimitation of what she is offering, and its presence in quotation marks makes it testimony rather than description. The newborn is present. The mouth is specified. The drug-dealer's testicles are the economic end of the transaction. The entry renders this without editorializing because editorializing would be insufficient.
"Those who, before going to war, / do not fuck like they are going to war / are not ready to go to war" — the entry is the series' most aphoristically concentrated statement about the relationship between erotic and martial intensity, and it works through the repetition of "going to war" across three lines in which the phrase accumulates different meanings. The first instance is literal; the second is figurative — the quality of erotic engagement as a measure of one's relationship to mortality and urgency; the third returns to the literal but is now inflected by the second. The entry is not advocating for war but for a relationship to one's own intensity that does not flinch from its own implications.
"Your desire to support her does eclipse / your desire to fuck her, but the proximity / that comes with support has you fuck her" — the entry is the section's most precise account of a specific mechanism of desire: the way that genuine care and genuine erotic interest, even when the former authentically outweighs the latter, conspire through the simple physics of proximity to produce the outcome that the ethical hierarchy had apparently foreclosed. The entry does not moralize. It describes a mechanism that operates regardless of the moral intentions of the people inside it.
"If you cannot criminalize a certain group (blacks), / have people link that group with a practice (crack use) / and then excessively criminalize that practice" — the section closes with the series' most compressed account of structural racism as a legal and political mechanism: the three-step process by which racial targeting is achieved through the criminalization of racially associated behavior rather than through explicit racial designation. The entry is an instruction manual for a process that has been extensively documented in American legal history, rendered here in the format of a logical sequence — if A then B then C — that strips it of euphemism and presents it as the deliberate procedure it has been.
Formally, Part 4 achieves its effects through the tension between the catalogue's sustained anaphoric structure and the section's surrounding aphoristic scatter. The "a land where" sequence creates a temporary organization — a formation — that the section's other entries do not share. The formation's dispersal at both ends of the sequence makes the catalogue feel like a moment of collective focus in a consciousness that is ordinarily distributed: the hive briefly swarming in one direction before returning to its characteristic omnidirectional attention. That the formation is organized around indictment — around a sustained accounting of a culture's failures — gives the section its heaviest political register while the surrounding entries maintain the series' commitment to ranging freely across every other aspect of human experience simultaneously.
Meta Description
The fourth installment of the Hive Being series, organized around a sustained anaphoric catalogue of cultural indictments — "a land where" — embedded in the series' characteristic aphoristic scatter, ranging from dope-sick mothers and structural racism to the epistemological collapses of a culture that has lost the capacity to distinguish the comic from the catastrophic.
Keywords
Made for You and Me Hive Being Part 4, anaphoric catalogue, a land where, cultural indictment, aphorism poetry, structural racism, cancel culture critique, epistemological collapse, distributed consciousness, contemporary American satire, close reading, Hypocorism, litany form, political poetry, hive being series
Opening Section of ''Hypocorism'' (ROUND 1)
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Action Jackson (ROUND 2)
"Action Jackson" is a poem about the social contract of urban public space and the specific mechanism by which that contract is enforced — or rather, by which its enforcement is suspended when enforcement would require acknowledging what is being seen. Its subject is a man having sex with a corpse on a subway car, and the poem's real subject is everyone else in the car. The necrophilia is the occasion; the aversion is the argument.
The title names a type before naming an action. "Action Jackson" is the idiom of the man who acts, who takes what he wants, who is defined by his doing rather than his deliberating. It also carries the register of Blaxploitation-era naming, of the street-tough archetype whose confidence in his own appetites is his defining characteristic. The name does not distance the reader from the subject but places him in a cultural lineage of uninhibited masculine action — and then shows what that action looks like in a subway car with a corpse.
"He humps the hobo corpse / on the subway, natural / as a bunny" — the opening is the poem's most formally daring move, and it achieves its effect through the simile rather than through the act itself. "Natural as a bunny" is the poem's central irony: the bunny comparison imports the register of innocent, instinctive, unself-conscious animal behavior — the bunny does not deliberate, does not weigh consequences, does not perform its sexuality for an audience or against a prohibition. It simply does what its nature does. Applied to subway necrophilia, the simile refuses the register of horror or transgression and instead frames the act as natural comportment, which is not an endorsement but a diagnostic: this man is operating from the same unreflective instinctual register as the bunny, and the poem is interested in what that means for the people around him.
"Except he hooks the leg / to ogle the peekaboo" — the "except" introduces the single modification that distinguishes him from the bunny: the deliberate adjustment, the hooking of the leg to achieve a better viewing angle of the corpse's genitalia. "Peekaboo" is the poem's most unsettling diction choice, importing the register of infant play — the game of appearance and disappearance, of the revealed and the hidden — into an encounter with a dead body. The word makes the act simultaneously more sinister and more absurd, the adult sexual gaze rendered in the language of nursery games.
"Pausing / ('Sshhh') in the wedge before / fresh boarders shuffle past" — the parenthetical "Sshhh" is the poem's most compressed characterization. He pauses. He shushes — whether the corpse, himself, or the situation is deliberately ambiguous. The pause is tactical, the awareness of incoming witnesses producing not cessation but interruption, a brief management of optics before resumption. "The wedge" names the specific geometry of the pause: the transitional space between the act and its witness, the narrow interval in which he adjusts. "Fresh boarders" is exact — "fresh" carrying both its temporal meaning and its suggestion of the newly arrived, the uninitiated, those who do not yet know what they are boarding into.
"Aversion to looking racist / and mumble excuses into cars / free of clobbered-colon stank" — the final tercet is where the poem's actual argument lives, and it is devastating in its precision. The fresh boarders do not intervene. They do not call for help, do not alert authorities, do not acknowledge what they have seen. They mumble excuses and move to other cars. And the poem names the specific mechanism of their non-intervention: aversion to looking racist. The calculation is instantaneous and determinative — the social cost of being perceived as racist outweighs, in the fresh boarder's internal accounting, the social obligation to respond to what is happening in front of them. The prohibition against racial accusation has become more powerful than the prohibition against necrophilia in a public space.
"Clobbered-colon stank" completes the poem with a physiological specificity that forecloses any aestheticization of what has occurred. The smell is the corpse's smell, the smell of death and bodily dissolution, and it is the one thing the fresh boarders are relieved to escape when they find the other car. They have not escaped what they saw. They have escaped the smell of it — which is to say they have traded one form of confrontation for a lesser one and called it resolution.
The poem's formal economy is its ethical argument. Three tercets, nine lines, one act, one mechanism of non-response. The brevity refuses elaboration, refuses the moral processing that would allow the reader to arrive at a comfortable position. The bunny simile refuses horror. The "Sshhh" refuses confrontation. The aversion to looking racist refuses intervention. The poem accumulates these refusals until the final tercet delivers the mechanism that makes all the others possible: the social prohibition that has become, in the contemporary urban public space, more binding than any other. The man with the corpse knows this. The poem suggests he may be counting on it.
"Action Jackson" is ultimately a poem about the hierarchy of contemporary social prohibitions and the specific leverage points that knowledge of that hierarchy provides. The man acts with the natural confidence of the bunny because he has correctly read the social environment: the people who board will see, will calculate, will determine that intervention carries a cost higher than non-intervention, and will find the other car. The corpse cannot object. The boarders will not. The social contract, in this specific configuration of contemporary anxieties, has no enforcement mechanism left. Action Jackson acts accordingly.
Meta Description
A poem about subway necrophilia as the occasion for its real subject: the mechanism by which bystanders calculate that aversion to looking racist outweighs the obligation to intervene, leaving the social contract without an enforcement mechanism in the specific configuration of contemporary urban anxiety.
Keywords
Action Jackson, subway necrophilia, bystander mechanism, social contract, aversion to racism accusation, urban public space, contemporary satire, bunny simile, clobbered colon, peekaboo diction, non-intervention calculus, close reading, Hypocorism, social prohibition hierarchy, contemporary American poetry
Amor Prohibido (ROUND 1)
"Amor Prohibido" is a poem about the rhetoric of seduction as a system — the way that a particular kind of experienced adult male voice assembles, in eight lines, every instrument of persuasion available to it and deploys them in sequence with a fluency that is itself the most revealing thing about the speaker. The title, borrowed from Selena's 1994 hit about a love forbidden by class difference, reframes the prohibition: what is forbidden here is not class-crossing but age-crossing, and the poem's eight lines are a portrait of how such crossings are verbally engineered — not through dominance or presumption but through a practiced, attentive confidence that knows what it wants and has learned to read what others need.
The poem is structured as a direct address — a message, a text, a DM — and its form is its argument. It does not describe seduction; it performs it, in real time, on the reader. This is the poem's most formally daring quality: the reader occupies the position of the recipient, and the speaker's rhetoric lands before it can be analytically processed. By the time one identifies the techniques being deployed, they have already been deployed.
The opening word — "Hey" — is the poem's most precise single choice. Not "Hello," which would be formal. Not the recipient's name, which would be intimate in a different register. "Hey" is the calibrated casualness of someone who has done this before, who knows that the first word sets the temperature of everything that follows, and who has chosen a temperature of relaxed confidence that performs the absence of pressure while being entirely purposeful. The "Hey" is a genre: the opening of a specific kind of message from a specific kind of man.
"I think you should let me spoil you a bit" — the modal "I think" softens without weakening. It performs tentativeness while delivering a directive: you should let me. "Spoil" activates the entire economy of gifts, attention, and resource transfer that structures the appeal — and "a bit" miniaturizes it, making the spoiling sound casual, low-stakes, easily accepted without obligation. The sentence performs the posture of a man who is merely sharing a thought while knowing exactly what thought he is sharing.
"Your semester starts soon, right?" — the question mark is doing enormous work. The speaker almost certainly knows when her semester starts. The "right?" performs uncertainty he may not have, inviting her confirmation, drawing her into the conversation as a participant rather than a recipient. It also deploys the academic calendar as a closing window, a now-or-never pressure that the word "soon" tightens. "So how about / we do a little Airbnb getaway before school / sinks its claws in you?" — "we" absorbs her into a plan already forming. "A little" miniaturizes again, making the getaway sound modest and easily fitted into any schedule. "Before school / sinks its claws in you" is the poem's most rhetorically sophisticated construction: it positions institutional obligation as predatory, as something that will take her, and positions the getaway as a rescue, a gift of freedom before the claws close. The speaker is not taking. He is offering an escape from what will take.
"I know that's forward" — the acknowledgment of forwardness is the seduction's most elegant move. By naming the quality of the proposition himself, the speaker demonstrates self-awareness, performs honesty, and inoculates against the charge before it can be made. The acknowledgment is not an apology but a preemptive disarmament — and it clears the ground for the poem's central declaration.
"But I know what I want. And I know enough / about this world to know what you need." — this is the poem's volta, and the removal of "too" from the final phrase is everything. The line is not claiming to know her better than she knows herself. It is claiming attentiveness: the speaker has been watching, reading, paying the kind of close attention that experience makes possible, and what he has arrived at is not a projection of his own desires onto her but a genuine reading of hers. "I know enough about this world" is the age gap offered not as superiority but as credential for care — the worldliness that allows him to recognize what she needs because he has seen enough to know it when he sees it. The claim is intimate rather than presumptuous: I have been paying attention to you specifically, and what I see is this.
"I promise to be a gentleman — until, of course, / you give me the green light to be otherwise." — the closing couplet delivers the proposition's true content beneath the cover of its entire rhetorical apparatus. The promise of gentlemanliness is conditional and temporary — "until, of course" — and the "of course" performs the inevitability of the green light as something mutually understood, already agreed upon implicitly, a matter of when rather than whether. The green light is genuinely hers to give: the speaker is not assuming he will take what has not been offered. He is expressing his confidence — earned through attention — that the offer will be made. The poem ends on this confidence: quiet, unhurried, the posture of a man who knows what he wants and has made his case and is willing to wait for the light.
What "Amor Prohibido" achieves formally is the complete inhabitation of a rhetorical register without a single word of external commentary. The speaker is never named, the recipient never described, the nature of the prohibition never stated. The title supplies the frame; the eight lines supply the mechanism. The poem is a found object — the DM, the carefully composed message — elevated into a specimen of how desire expresses itself when experience has refined it into something that no longer sounds like seduction at all, but simply like a man who knows what he wants and has been paying close enough attention to know that she might want it too.
Meta Description
A poem structured as a seductive direct address — eight lines performing the instruments of experienced, attentive persuasion in sequence, from calibrated casualness to the quiet confidence of a man who has been paying close enough attention to know what she needs, ending with the green light assumed as inevitable.
Keywords
Amor Prohibido, seduction rhetoric, direct address poem, age gap persuasion, attentive confidence, green light, Airbnb getaway, Selena amor prohibido, forbidden love, rhetorical analysis poetry, desire and attention, close reading, Hypocorism, DM as poem, adult male seduction
Descendants of African Slavers Pay Reputational Reparations (ROUND 1)
"Descendants of African Slavers Pay Reputational Reparations" is a poem about karmic irony operating at civilizational scale. Its title states the irony directly: the descendants of African kingdoms and merchants who participated in selling people into the transatlantic slave trade are now paying a reparations bill they never anticipated, in a currency no one legislated, through a mechanism that is simply the long arc of consequence finding its way home. The payment is reputational. The Black American cultural image — dominant, globally exported, flattened into spectacle by the mechanisms of mass culture and mass tourism — now precedes every African and diasporic Black person who steps onto the world stage, attaching itself to their identity regardless of their individual character, national origin, or distance from American history. The descendants of the sellers are among those paying this tax. The universe, the title declares with the flat confidence of a ledger entry, has its own accounting department.
The historical premise the title rests on is factual and largely suppressed in mainstream discourse: the transatlantic slave trade required African participation. Kingdoms, merchants, and military powers across West and Central Africa captured and sold enslaved people to European traders on a massive scale. The descendants of those participants — Nigerians, Ghanaians, Senegalese, Beninese — now navigate a world in which the product of that historical transaction, Black American culture at its most ungoverned and most visible, has become the global face of Blackness itself. The karma is structural, not personal. No individual descendant chose this. The bill arrived anyway, as bills generated by history tend to do.
The poem proper is a nine-line comic set piece that renders one of the circus rings where the reputational bill is being run up in real time. "Little did Mr. White Dad / anticipate" — the mock-epic construction, the proper-noun-ification of "White Dad" as demographic type — establishes the comic register immediately. Mr. White Dad is the liberal or merely oblivious white consumer of managed multicultural experience: the Groupon is his instrument, the family cruise his chosen vehicle for a controlled encounter with the broader world. The Groupon is the poem's most precise sociological detail: it designates the price point at which the managed multicultural encounter becomes unmanageable, where the demographic mix shifts beyond what the family vacation framework was designed to contain.
"The Groupon cruise / to ratchet down into Popeyes / on the high seas" — "ratchet" clicks through both its mechanical and vernacular registers simultaneously. As mechanism it describes an irreversible downward movement, notch by notch, no going back. As vernacular adjective it designates the specific register of Black American feminine performance — uninhibited, confrontational, sexually expressive, fight-ready — that the poem is about to render. The Groupon cruise ratchets into Popeyes on the high seas: the specific fast food chain chosen for its cultural associations, its status as viral site of the confrontational and exuberantly ungoverned, now floating on international waters where Mr. White Dad's child is present and cannot be retrieved to safer coordinates.
"Thongs / twerking streetball funk / into his child's no-going-back nose" — "streetball funk" is the poem's most compressed cultural-olfactory designation: the atmospheric compound of exertion, close bodies, hair products, and the ambient quality of unsupervised Black social culture, twerked directly into the child's permanent sensory memory. "No-going-back nose" is the poem's most philosophically precise detail. The olfactory sense is the most directly memory-linked and the least amenable to retrospective recontextualization: what the child smells cannot be unsmelled, cannot be reframed. The association is installed. This is the global mechanism in miniature: the image, once encountered, attaches. The Nigerian scholar walking into a London boardroom tomorrow walks in through the door that this cruise has been furnishing.
"Tits flapping in hair-hatted fistfights / with staff dumb enough / to deny a queen her crab" — the fistfight is the poem's comic climax and its most concentrated image of the reputational bill being generated in real time. "Hair-hatted" designates the elaborate protective head coverings surviving the fistfight as structural testament to their construction. "Staff dumb enough / to deny a queen her crab" places the comic weight on the staff member who misread the social dynamics — but the poem's larger point is that this scene, this specific configuration of entitlement and confrontation, is being witnessed, photographed, uploaded, and appended to the global image of Blackness. The queen gets her crab. The reputational invoice goes to Lagos, Accra, Nairobi, Kingston. The Groupon cruise is one of countless such circus rings where the tab accumulates, and the descendants of the people who started the whole chain of events are among those picking it up — not by anyone's design, not by any court's order, but by the patient and indifferent arithmetic of history settling its own accounts.
The poem does not editorialize about whether this is just. It notes that it is happening. The title's declarative flatness is its only evaluative gesture: not outrage, not celebration, not lamentation, but the tone of a ledger being read aloud. The reparations are being paid by someone, through a mechanism that is karma rather than legislation, to recipients who are Mr. White Dad's child's permanently altered olfactory memory rather than any identifiable aggrieved party. The universe runs its own reparations program on its own timeline and consults no one about the terms.
Formally, the poem's three tercets move from setup to escalation to climax with the economy of a well-timed joke whose punchline is also an indictment. The comic surface — the Groupon, the Popeyes, the hair-hatted fistfight over crab — is the poem's delivery mechanism for a historical and karmic argument that the title states and the body illustrates. The specificity of the imagery is the poem's evidence: these are not abstract cultural forces but twerking thongs and flapping tits and a queen who will have her crab, and it is precisely their specificity, their visibility, their exportability as image, that makes them the instrument of the reputational tax the title names. The poem earns its comedy because the comedy is the mechanism: the absurdity of the cruise scene is inseparable from the seriousness of what the cruise scene generates and sends around the world.
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A comic poem about karmic irony at civilizational scale: the descendants of African slavers now pay reputational reparations as Black American supercitizen spectacle — rendered in vivid detail aboard a Groupon cruise — flattens global Blackness into a single exported image that precedes every African onto the world stage.
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Descendants of African Slavers Pay Reputational Reparations, karmic irony, reputational tax, Black American supercitizen, global Blackness, Groupon cruise poem, ratchet culture, African slave trade descendants, cultural image export, comic indictment, contemporary satire, close reading, Hypocorism, transatlantic slave trade karma, reputational reparations
Subway Restraint (ROUND 12)
"Subway Restraint" is a dramatic prose monologue of extraordinary formal ambition, structured around the prolonged management of violent desire and its ultimate release. Its deepest subject is neither race nor politics nor violence as such but the psychology of incubation — the process by which a mind cultivates rather than dissipates its own rage, converting restraint from a virtue into a technology of intensification. The piece presents itself formally as a practical guide to self-control — "Serve the long game," "Breathe," "Restrain yourself" — yet everything about its architecture reveals that these instructions function as instruments of concentration rather than reduction. The narrator does not calm himself. He refines himself. Rage is treated as a resource to be made more potent through delay, and the work's central irony — announced in its title — is that the restraint depicted here is genuine without being virtuous. It is deferred eruption.
The second-person address is the piece's most formally audacious and most disturbing choice. "You" implicates the reader not as observer but as agent — the narrator is not telling us about someone who committed this act but telling us, as we read, what to do next. This collapses the conventional distance between reader and character that literary violence typically maintains, placing the reader inside a deliberative process calibrated to feel reasonable, patient, and philosophically grounded. The effect is not identification in the usual sense but something more unsettling: the reader experiences radicalization not as retrospective confession but as live instruction, and the prose is designed to make each step feel like the natural consequence of the one before. The second person is not a gimmick but an argument — that the funnel from legitimate grievance to catastrophic action is wider at the top than we prefer to believe, and that the steps leading down it are comprehensible at each individual point even when their aggregate destination is not.
The piece's most original formal device is what might be called eroticized aggression. Throughout, violent impulse is rendered through the language of sexual edging — waiting, building pressure, postponing release, letting frustration accumulate into something richer and more satisfying. The language of libido and the language of violence become indistinguishable: aggression is sexualized, sexuality is weaponized, and the subway becomes less a political space than a pressure chamber in which psychic energy seeks an outlet. The edging metaphor extends to the prose itself, whose sentences are long, recursive, and clause-heavy, always deferring the syntactic resolution that a period would provide, enacting at the level of form the same economy of deferral and accumulation the narrator is practicing psychologically. The piece deploys "jouissance" — Lacan's term for a pleasure so intense it becomes indistinguishable from pain — to name the trajectory precisely: what the narrator is building toward is not satisfaction in any ordinary sense but a release that will destroy the conditions of its own possibility.
The repeated instructions to breathe are equally important and equally inverted. On the surface they resemble mindfulness exercises. Yet their actual function is the opposite of therapeutic regulation. The narrator explicitly treats calming techniques as instruments for preserving rage rather than dissipating it, converting the language of self-care into a technology of self-radicalization. What appears healthy is revealed as another mechanism of escalation — demonstrating that the most dangerous passions are often not the hottest but the most disciplined, and that a mind sufficiently committed to its own radicalization can recruit any available resource, including the resources designed to prevent it, into the project.
The sensory writing performs a parallel function at the level of environment. The opening olfactory barrage — the layered subway smells organized around contamination and infection — is not ornamental description but perceptual argument. Nearly every sensory impression arrives already infected, bodies bleeding into odors, odors into judgments, judgments into ideological conclusions. The environment itself seems diseased. This saturation of perception mirrors the narrator's mental state: he cannot encounter anything neutrally because every perception is immediately absorbed into an interpretive system already vibrating with grievance. The world has become fully legible to him — and crucially, the piece insists that this legibility is not entirely delusional.
This is the revision that the piece's architecture demands and that conventional radicalization narratives typically foreclose. The standard literary closed loop involves a protagonist whose interpretation of the world is sealed off from reality's corrections — paranoia mistaken for pattern recognition, delusion mistaken for diagnosis. "Subway Restraint" refuses this comfort. Jakim's reading of progressive institutional culture — its dependency economics, its performative allyship, its self-perpetuating grievance infrastructure — is rendered with sufficient intellectual force that the reader cannot simply locate a break with reality and file the violence there. The piece gestures toward real institutional entanglements: organizations presented as gold standards of anti-hate monitoring implicated in the very dynamics they claim to oppose, DEI frameworks that produce the outcomes they claim to prevent, progressive cultural machinery that profits from the persistence of the conditions it nominally addresses. Jakim's conspiracy-adjacent thinking is not pure paranoia. It is pattern recognition arriving at the right destination by a path that looks unhinged. The loop closes not because he is delusional but because the world keeps confirming his diagnosis.
This is what separates the piece from simpler radicalization portraits and gives it its most disturbing literary quality. The tragedy is not a man destroyed by delusion but a man whose accurate perception of real corruption has been captured by the daimonic voice and metabolized into something that destroys him and others anyway. Correct diagnosis, catastrophic prescription. Truth, in this piece, is not corrective. It is accelerant.
The piece becomes most formally interesting when the speaker is understood not as identical with the protagonist but as functioning in the role of a daimonic presence — a tutelary voice, a parasitic advisor whispering into the ear of its charge. The voice addressing "you" does not simply encourage violence; it trains attention, teaches interpretation, transforms every confirmation of Jakim's diagnosis into fuel rather than into actionable understanding. The daimon's most insidious quality is that it never disputes the accuracy of what Jakim sees. It disputes only what should be done with it. "Serve the long game." "Give your defense attorney at least a little to work with." This is not impulsive rage but strategic rage — and the daimon's power derives precisely from the fact that it never needs to lie to its host. It simply redirects what is true toward what is catastrophic.
The lead protester blocking the subway exit ceases early to function as an ordinary person and becomes instead a condensation figure — a single body onto which the narrator projects the entire apparatus of what he believes poisons Black flourishing. The subway scene accordingly acquires the dream logic of psychoanalysis: a single figure accumulates vast symbolic weight, carrying ideological, historical, and emotional burdens far exceeding her immediate presence. The shift from micro to macro is one of the piece's defining structural achievements — a blocked subway door expands into a grand historical argument, and the expansion feels, from inside the narrator's perspective, not like distortion but like accurate perception of connections that were always there. The piece neither fully endorses nor fully refutes this expansion. It holds the reader in the uncomfortable position of being unable to locate the precise moment where pattern recognition becomes pathology.
The racial ideology the narrator constructs demands serious engagement rather than dismissal. The narrator is a Black man who has arrived, through a specific intellectual and emotional history, at a position simultaneously anti-white-progressive and anti-victimhood — one that draws on genuine arguments about dependency culture, the paternalism embedded in certain forms of allyship, and the ways progressive racial frameworks can function to maintain Black people in a posture of permanent grievance. These arguments have intellectual genealogy and genuine advocates in serious academic discourse. What the piece traces is not the corruption of these arguments but their capture — the process by which legitimate diagnosis, denied every other outlet, is metabolized by the daimonic voice into mass violence. The narrator's logic is internally consistent throughout. Each escalation follows from the previous position by comprehensible steps. What transforms the sequence is not irrationality but the absence of any mechanism by which accurate perception can discharge into something other than destruction.
The Mike letter is the piece's most significant formal rupture. When the stylized daimonic second-person voice gives way to the narrator's own first-person address — "Man, what can I say?" — the register shifts entirely. The controlled, rhetorically sophisticated prose of the monologue is replaced by something rawer, more recursive, more colloquial, full of self-interruption and revision. This is the narrator speaking, not the daimon — and the distinction matters enormously. The letter shows us the ideology in its unpolished, genuinely felt form: the real grievances, the intellectual self-awareness, the moments of genuine doubt, the rhetorical self-justification, the acknowledgment of oversimplification. Most significantly, it shows a mind that can see its own contradictions and cannot stop anyway. The letter is not the raving of a man who has lost contact with reality. It is the raving of a man who has lost the ability to convert his contact with reality into anything other than this. The daimonic voice did not need to deceive him. It only needed to ensure that every accurate perception fed the same terminal conclusion.
By placing the letter inside the monologue — so that the reader has already experienced the ideology at its most perfected before encountering it in its raw state — the piece creates a double portrait: the finished product and the workshop simultaneously visible. The letter's power comes from its position. Moved to the end it becomes elegy. Where it sits now it is anatomy — and anatomy of a specific, disturbing kind: the anatomy of a mind that was right about the disease and wrong about the cure, and that had no way, given its capture by the daimonic voice, of arriving at any other conclusion.
The invocation of Ellison's "Invisible Man" — the narrator's stated favorite since college — is the piece's most significant literary self-placement. The Brotherhood's use of Black suffering as combustible material maps directly onto the narrator's analysis of progressive organizations, and the letter makes this connection explicit and personal. The tragedy is that the narrator's solution to being trapped inside a racial narrative is to perform the act that most completely confirms it. He becomes, in his resistance to the narrative, its most catastrophic validation. This is not a failure of the piece's logic but its tragic center — and it is a tragedy of a specific kind: not hubris, not delusion, but accurate vision captured by a voice that knew exactly what to do with it.
What "Subway Restraint" ultimately achieves is a portrait of radicalization as accurate perception without corrective outlet. The conventional closed loop involves a character trapped in his own head, insulated from reality's corrections. This piece constructs something more disturbing: a loop that closes because the world keeps confirming what the character sees, and the daimonic voice ensures that every confirmation feeds only one conclusion. Truth here is not liberating. It is the accelerant the daimon has been waiting for. The reader is left not with the comfortable distance of watching a deluded man destroy himself, but with the far more troubling recognition that the diagnosis was sound and the prescription was catastrophic — and that the gap between these two facts is where the piece's real horror lives.
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A dramatic prose monologue studying ressentiment under conditions of ideological possession — tracing through eroticized aggression, daimonic instruction, and accurate perception converted into accelerant how a Black man's legitimate diagnosis of progressive institutional corruption is captured by a tutelary voice that ensures every truth feeds only one terminal conclusion, producing tragedy not of delusion but of correct vision without corrective outlet.
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Subway Restraint, ressentiment, daimonic voice, accurate perception and radicalization, closed loop, truth as accelerant, ideological possession, eroticized aggression, edging metaphor, jouissance, second-person narration, Ellison Invisible Man, Black conservative ideology, predatory help industry, condensation figure, Mike letter, register rupture, correct diagnosis catastrophic prescription, dependency culture, contemporary American prose, psychological escalation, manifesto within monologue
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"An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" is a character study of extraordinary density that operates simultaneously as social criticism, psychological portrait, spiritual anatomy, and elegy for a generation caught between the wreckage of postmodernity and the human need for enchantment that postmodernity cannot satisfy. Its unnamed protagonist — the brujita, the cyber witch, the self-styled metaverse malvada — is rendered with a specificity that refuses both the condescending dismissal the author's note acknowledges as a temptation and the uncritical celebration that her own self-mythology demands. The piece holds her in the space between these responses, which is where the most honest literary attention lives.
The mirror is the piece's governing formal and philosophical structure, announced in the recurring lead sentences and sustained throughout as both literal object and conceptual frame. The floor mirror the brujita leans toward, the phone selfie, the floor monitor displaying her avatar, the Tumblr manifestation board, the diary, the SpongeBob hat as relic of reflected childhood — everything in her environment functions as a surface in which she attempts to find a stable self and finds instead proliferating versions, none quite coinciding with the original. "Her reflection, close to touching the original, pulses for her like psilocybin" is the piece's most compressed statement of this condition: the reflection approaches but never achieves coincidence with what it reflects, and the gap between them — that millimeter of irreducible distance — is where the brujita lives. Chaos magic, as the piece understands it, is the attempt to close this gap by force of will — to make the reflection become the original through sufficient intensity of self-declaration.
The piece's most significant formal innovation is its deployment of the alternative-world counterpart. The Hagatess comparison is not merely a sociological contrast between urban digital witchcraft and rural embodied witchcraft, though it is that too. It is a philosophical argument about the relationship between metaphor and materiality. The Maine witch's hedge-crossing is literal before it is metaphorical; the brujita's hedge-crossing is metaphorical before it is — possibly, aspirationally — literal. "To be a custodian of hedges is to be a custodian of in-between spaces" is the piece's most generous formulation of what the brujita is genuinely doing, even within and beneath the curation and the shitposting and the manifesting: she is genuinely inhabiting thresholds, genuinely maintaining the border between meat and pixel, genuinely finding in code a practice that is continuous with the older practice of hedge-witchery even as it is entirely discontinuous from it in every material particular. The piece's intelligence is in granting this continuity without pretending the discontinuity doesn't cost something real.
The rapper tape of self-curation that surrounds the brujita — the IG bio, the CashApp handle, the Depop page, the Redbubble shop, the Tumblr manifestation board, the Only Fans, the Twitch stream, the avatar in Afro-Solarpunk GTA — is not rendered as mere vanity but as a genuine, if displaced, spiritual practice. The piece understands curation as the secular form of the same impulse that fills the brujita's dream satchel with garnet and mugwort: the attempt to shape the environment of the self, to arrange the materials of existence into a configuration that will attract what is desired and repel what is feared. That the materials are now Temu neon lichen and Etsy nymph stickers rather than dried hinojo and foraged knotweed is a difference of platform, not of fundamental human activity. The piece does not excuse the shallowness this sometimes produces. It locates the shallowness within a recognizable human hunger.
The rape sequence — rendered in the staccato blackout structure of traumatic memory, each line a flash cut to black — is the piece's formal and emotional center of gravity, and its placement within the longer narrative arc is precise. The brujita's chaos magic, her manifestation practice, her radical self-sovereignty declarations ("I am the programmer. My decisions, my style, / come from me, not from anything beyond me!") are all, the piece suggests, organized in significant part around this event and its aftermath — the attempt to become the author of a self whose authorship was violated. The diary entry's culminating declaration — "Death, rape, war, divorce, dead-beat dads — / I'm the one who lets them be real or not!" — is simultaneously the piece's most delusional and most sympathetic moment: delusional because the God Mode it claims is unavailable to any human being, sympathetic because the need for it is completely legible given what the preceding flashback sequence has shown. Chaos magic, in this reading, is not primarily superstition but a specific psychological response to the experience of having had one's reality determined by someone else's will. The magic is the attempt to reclaim the position of reality's author.
The mother's whiteness and the father's Blackness organize the brujita's identity in ways the piece renders with careful indirection. The mother — "a true queen but whose whiteness, having grown beyond just 1990s 'uncool' and into 2020s 'problematic,' renders such regality unseen" — is present, capable, genuinely loving, and culturally unmarketable in the brujita's ideological environment. The father — "a deadbeat 'King' who gets off on making store clerks stretch to gather his loosie quarters, bops down the block one cop strangle away from becoming, until at least Disney fashion changes, a city-center statue" — is absent, performatively dignified, and culturally hypervaluable in that same environment. The "$blaxicanbruja" handle navigates this inheritance by claiming the Black and the Mexican and letting the white remain implicit and unacknowledged — a dynamic the piece notes with the quiet observation that she "seemingly identify as part Mexican" while the subtle implication is that she is denying her whiteness. Identity here is not simply chosen but strategically curated, assembled from the culturally available materials in ways that maximize belonging and minimize the liability of the unmarketable.
The anime subreddit sequence is among the piece's most formally brilliant passages — the posts reproduced in their actual idiom, their casual nihilism and identity-grievance and erotic longing forming a kind of found poetry of the platform's affective register. "Shinji Ikari is LITERALLY ME. useless bisexual disasters ✅ daddy issues FOR DAYS ✅ depression naps 24/7 ✅" is simultaneously self-aware and self-regarding, genuinely identifying with a character's psychological complexity and reducing that complexity to an identity checklist. The subreddit is the brujita's social mirror — a space where her specific configuration of pain and humor and political feeling finds community — and the piece renders it without contempt while making visible exactly how the platform's idiom shapes what can be felt and said within it.
The author's note is the piece's most unusual formal element, and its inclusion is a significant artistic decision. The author appears in his own text to describe the process of coming to see the character's humanity — moving from the temptation to dismiss her to the recognition of her innocence, her hard work, her dreams, her potential. The Sagan quotations frame this arc: first the critique (the slide into superstition and darkness), then the corrective (the temperance of criticism with kindness toward those whose culture has not given them all the tools they need). The note does not resolve the tension between these positions; it names it as the piece's governing moral challenge, which is also the reader's. We are invited to hold simultaneously the genuine harm of the brujita's worldview — its solipsism, its victimhood economics, its displacement of real understanding with magical substitutes — and the genuine human being constructing that worldview from the available materials of a specific time, place, and wound. The Hitler quotation is the note's most provocative element, placed alongside the Sagan quotation to suggest that the anti-rational turn has a history that predates Gen Z and has produced consequences far worse than any one young woman's crystal collection.
The diary entry that closes the piece is its most formally distinctive element — the shift to verse within the prose, the "bucking motions of erotic greed" of the handwriting enacted in the erratic spacing and pressure of the lines. "Let my delusions be scarecrows. Let them frighten / any so-called 'reality' seeking to devour my crop: ME." is the brujita at her most genuinely poetic — the image precise, the logic coherent within its own terms, the self-protective function of magical thinking rendered not as pathology but as strategy. The final declaration — "I'm the one who lets them be real or not!" — arrives as both triumph and tragedy: the God Mode claimed, the cost of claiming it left for the reader to feel.
What "An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" achieves is a portrait of a specific contemporary formation of the human spirit — wounded, creative, politically confused, genuinely searching, embedded in platforms that shape what can be desired and how desire can be expressed, reaching for enchantment in a world that has systematically dismantled the older structures through which enchantment was transmitted and received, and constructing from the available digital materials something that is simultaneously less and more than what it replaces. The piece does not conclude that the brujita is lost. It concludes that she is navigating, as best she can with what she has, the same territory that humans have always navigated: the gap between the self they are and the self they need to become, with whatever tools their culture and their wound have left them.
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A novelistic character study of a young mixed-race Los Angeles woman navigating chaos magic, digital curation, racial identity, sexual trauma, and the human hunger for enchantment in a disenchanted world — rendered through mirrors literal and figurative, the alternative-world counterpart of a Maine hedge witch, a rape sequence in blackout staccato, and a diary entry that culminates in the God Mode declaration of a psyche determined to author its own reality against everything that has authored her instead.
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An Introduction to Chaos Magic, chaos magic poetry, brujita, blaxican witch, digital witchcraft, manifestation culture, Gen Z identity, racial identity curation, trauma and magical thinking, mirror as form, hedge witch comparison, anime subreddit, Hagatess, alternative world counterpart, rape and self-sovereignty, Carl Sagan Demon-Haunted World, author's note as form, diary as verse, God Mode declaration, contemporary American prose poem, character study, superstition and postmodernity, identity and platform, Los Angeles witch