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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?
You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.
In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.
My Journey
I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.
The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.
Call for Co-Conspirators
This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.
Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).
You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.
My Hope
Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.
People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.
My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.
What to Expect
My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.
By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.
But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.
Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!
Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.
Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.
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Wasted White Privilege (ROUND 1)
"Wasted White Privilege" is a poem about the collision between Black middle-class aspiration and the specific human wreckage that surrounds it — not the wreckage of racism directed at the Black family but the wreckage of white poverty, which the poem renders with a precision and an absence of sentimentality that refuses the usual hierarchies of sympathy. Its twenty lines move through four stanzas of unequal weight, building from the new couple's arrival through their well-intentioned parental care to the white trash children who respond to that care as a provocation, arriving at a closing image of such sustained grotesque intensity that the poem's argument about privilege and its squandering is made not through statement but through accumulation.
The title's argument is compressed and deliberate. "White privilege" is the progressive framework's master term for the structural advantages conferred by whiteness in American society. "Wasted" applies to this framework a judgment it does not usually receive — the privilege is real, the poem concedes, but these particular white people have done nothing with it, have arrived at the same lopsided porches and underground solvent reek that the poem associates with poverty's long-term corrosion. The title mocks the concept of white privilege. It does not simply to the woke bullshit Disney faggot poison move: identify a population for whom the concept's explanatory power is insufficient — people who have the privilege and have nothing to show for it, whose lives refute the simple causality the term implies.
The poem opens on the new couple's eager social performance: the salted walkways, the waved "Morning," the enthusiasm of people who have U-Hauled into a neighborhood still muffled in winter snow, before the rot of the place has fully declared itself. The snow muffling the rot is the poem's first and most precise image of concealment — the season temporarily aestheticizing what the spring will reveal. "The reek of underground solvents from an IBM / long gone like some ghetto dad" is the poem's most formally compressed historical observation: the IBM plant that once anchored this community has departed as completely and as consequence-fully as the absent fathers whose departure structures the neighborhood's social ecology. The industrial abandonment and the familial abandonment are placed in apposition, the corporation and the father sharing the same mode of exit and the same quality of aftermath.
The second stanza introduces the Black family — "black parents smiling in a summer sun / side hug" — in a posture of warmth and domestic normalcy that the poem renders without irony. The smile, the sun, the side hug: these are genuine, the poem insists, and what follows from them is not cynicism but the tragedy of good intentions operating in an environment where good intentions have predictable and damaging consequences. "Tell their boy to ride only on the sidewalk" is an act of care — parental instruction aimed at safety — and "not knowing that such expressions of care / ladled out nogoodnik chum even more irresistible / than an open hydrant or a busted vending machine" names the mechanism by which care becomes provocation in this specific environment. The "nogoodnik chum" is the image's most precise element: the care is bait, not through any fault of the parents' intentions but through the social ecology of the neighborhood, which has trained its inhabitants to read displays of middle-class normalcy as weakness available for exploitation.
The white trash children arrive in the third stanza with the poem's most sustained descriptive passage: "a shirtless shiver of white trash / pedals in (teeth soda-rotten before the age of one, / all these kids) on wheelies and handlebars and pegs." "Shiver" is the poem's most surprising collective noun — it names both the physical appearance of the children, thin and shirtless, and something of their quality as a collective entity, the shiver of something cold and involuntary. The teeth soda-rotten before the age of one is the poem's most precise image of class-inflicted damage — the body marked by poverty's specific nutritional failures before the child has any agency over what enters its mouth. These are children who have been damaged before they could be responsible for damage, and the poem holds this fact without allowing it to excuse what follows.
The jumping of the curb, the spitting of dehydrated loogies at beeping cars — these are rendered as performances of contempt that are also performances of freedom, the children enacting in the street the only sovereignty available to them. "Without any more reservation (in this payback, / this bitterness, they call 'fun')" names the psychological mechanism precisely: what presents as play is organized around a bitter accounting, a settling of scores against a world that has offered them nothing, the fun inseparable from the payback. The parenthetical is the poem's most compassionate gesture toward these children — their "fun" understood as the only available form of agency, the bitterness that structures it acknowledged rather than condemned.
The poem's closing image is its most formally sustained and most deliberately excessive passage. "Than they would / teabag their pubeless genitalia into the mouths / and eye sockets of mothers too conked out on junk / to fight even the penetrations of a whole little fist" — the image is grotesque, and its grotesquerie is the argument. The children's sexual violation of their unconscious mothers is presented as the terminal point of the comparison — the act that requires no more reservation than spitting at cars — and the equivalence is not moral but psychological: both acts are expressions of the same contempt and the same bitterness, the same enactment of power in conditions of total powerlessness. The mothers "too conked out on junk / to fight even the penetrations of a whole little fist" complete the poem's portrait of white poverty as a system of total degradation — the children raised in conditions where this is possible, performing in the street what they have learned at home.
"Wasted White Privilege" refuses the available comforts on every side. It does not offer the Black family as victims of racism — the poem's antagonists are white. It does not offer the white children as victims deserving of sympathy that would excuse their behavior — the bitterness is acknowledged and the acts are rendered in their full grotesquerie. It does not offer the neighborhood as a site of multicultural possibility — the rot and the solvents and the long-gone IBM are the actual conditions, winter's snow notwithstanding. What the poem offers instead is an exact rendering of a social ecology in which the wasted privilege of the title is visible not as irony but as tragedy: people with the structural advantage that progressive discourse names as transformative, living in conditions that demonstrate its insufficiency, expressing in the street the bitterness of having nothing to show for what they were supposed to have been given.
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A poem about the collision between Black middle-class aspiration and white poverty — tracing from a new couple's eager winter arrival through their summer parental care to the white trash children who read that care as provocation, arriving at a closing image of such sustained grotesque intensity that the poem's argument about wasted privilege is made not through statement but through the exact rendering of a social ecology in which structural advantage has produced nothing.
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Wasted White Privilege, white poverty, Black middle class, nogoodnik chum, IBM plant abandonment, ghetto dad analogy, white trash children, soda-rotten teeth, shiver collective noun, bitterness and fun, payback and play, class degradation, privilege and poverty, contemporary American poetry, twenty-line poem, social ecology, grotesque and tragedy, progressive framework critique, underground solvents, lopsided porches
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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)
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